Island...

Exactly 3 more weeks of lecture. And I'm done for this semester. Only waiting for final exam. 

I wanna go island again. Mamutik, preferably. Its the only one i haven't been there yet.

 Hmmm... hopefully la... I just feel blotted and i need to get a break.

A typical day. precious moments.

Praise God for today that I'm still able to live life on this planet called earth. =) 

Today was quite tiring but fun. Went out lunch with old friends in 1B and hang out with them for some time while waiting for class to start in the evening. 

My class went really good just now. Among all the classes I had for this subject, today's lecture had been the most encouraging one! I didn't jot down any notes except one, that is about "elevator pitch". I never heard it before but its really interesting how it can affect the audience's listening attentiveness. Its also interesting how this can be applied in every presentation (whether formal or informal). No one likes presenting in front of people. It gives goosebumps to me as well. Well, at least that was what I have gone through throughout the years before entering university. I remember every time during presentation, all I wished for is to finish off my presentation and go back to my seat. I never get the real aim of presenting. My nervousness always gets the best of me. But things began to change when I entered university. Although there are still times where I feel the nervousness, I learned how to control it more and more efficiently. I guess the old saying sure is right - 

"Practise makes perfect."

And experiences (including both failures and successes) are good teachers for all of us. =) And by knowing a bit about elevator pitch today makes me feel more motivated! I'm sure everyone want to be a good presenter. ;-) 

That's the story for my class.

Later at night (just now la...) had a good time talking with mom. We talked about stuffs.. and had a good mom-daughter talk. Its a pleasent moment I cherished. She's asleep now. Guess we're both tired for this looong day.

A brilliant story.

Professor: You are a Christian, aren’t you, son? Student: Yes, sir. Professor: So, you believe in God? Student: Absolutely, sir. Professor: Is God good? Student: Sure. Professor: My brother died of cancer, even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is God good, then? Hmm? (Student was silent) Professor: You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good? Student: Yes. Professor: Is Satan good? Student: No. Professor: Where does Satan come from? Student: From.. God. Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world? Student: Yes. Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct? Student: Yes. Professor: So who created evil? (Student didn’t answer) Professor: Is there sickness? Immortality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they? Student: Yes, sir. Professor: So, who created them? (Student had no answer) Professor: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son.. have you ever seen God? Student: No, sir. Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God. Student: No, sir. Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God, for that matter? Student: No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t. Professor: Yet you still believe in Him? Student: Yes. Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son? Student: Nothing. I only have my Faith. Professor: Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has. Student: Professor, is there such a thing as Heat? Professor: Yes. Student: And is there such a thing as Cold? Professor: Yes. Student: No, sir, there isn’t. (The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events) Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of Heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it. (There was a pon-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre) Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness? Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness? Student: You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light… But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and it’s called Darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, You would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you? Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man? Student: Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed. Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how? Student: Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey? Professor: If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes of course, I do. Student: Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir? (The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going) Student: Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher? (The class was in uproar) Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain? (The class broke out into laughter) Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? .. No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable and Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures? (The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable) Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son. Student: That is it, sir.. exactly! The link between man and God is Faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving! The student's name was Albert Einstein

RM200 book voucher

Hopefully this will be executed as what is mentioned during the announcement of Belanjawan Negara 2012.

The story of my 21st birthday.

Wow... Had a great night tonight! I believe all the good things come form You, Lord. ^^ Thank You Papa for everything. For my friends whom I dined with just now and for all the things they've done until giving me a surprise in Grace Point Memorial Park ! Honestly, I had no idea nor hint that they were doing this behind my back. Here's what happen...

Mel picked me up at home and I thought there were only 3 of us but it turned out to be four of us (plus Geraldine!). We went for dinner at Upperstar in Lintas and couldn't even finish our meal. When we waited for our orders to arrive, Mel and Eca went out to buy reload credit. Me and Gurl waited and waited. They took a long time... (After the surprise: it turns out that they were out buying the cake.) I even offered Mel to drive to our next destination but for the 1st time ever, she refused me driving. (For your info, Mel NEVER say 'no' when I offered to drive. she likes being the passenger i guess. xD)

We went to Taman Perdana around 9something for a short while since it closes at 10PM. IF i've known that we're going there, I wouldn't be wearing heels. It irritates me so much that I took 'em of and walk while we were in Taman Perdana. (Yeah, I don't like having blister. Ouch.)

After that, we went to Grace Point Memorial Park. There, the surprise was executed by Mel & Eca & Gurl (but Gurl got surprised herself by them). I was even more surprised when they gave me presents. (Awwww....) i love it. =)

Oh, and the lists go on and on.. But I'm glad we spent quality time together. =) 

Gurl & I

Yum yum...

I miss dad now. He's outstation and only will be coming back on Monday (tomorrow). I wanna have dinner with my family. =) Thank You Lord for You are so so soooo good... I remember in bible that says everything has its own season. There are season to cry, to laugh, to be silent, to speak, to sow, to reap and so on... (Ecclesiastes 3) I guess this day is the season to rejoice. So when every season has passed, let's prepare for another season (which are yet to be revealed)

Be blessed!

Love, 

Nethy. 

Be content.

Had a rare quality time with mom and bro just now watching TV (Dad is outstation, wish he was here too). Eventhough its a simple situation, the atmosphere was nice. Even its not a big deal, I thank God for the times we had. :) 

Sometimes we dream of having many things in life that we didn't even notice the small things in life that made life meaningful. We ask for more, yet we aren't satisfied in what we have. (Ouch, that touched a nerve.)

Sometimes we're too busy achieving this and that that we don't have the time to slow down and reflect on what has happened & what's waiting for our heads to turn around and notice it.

For a moment: Be thankful. Be content. In all things, give thanks to God. Give thanks, while we still have time. ^^

Reporting from Postgraduate Lab

Today went fine so far... I did some subculturing.. 

Tonnes of things to do after this day.. Isolation.. Fermentation.. Extraction.. Screening.. 

so.. i need to be mentally prepared and physically ready~ >.<

Its the 6th week now. wow time flies so fast man... Somehow i feel happy and also anxious. 

*fingers crossed!*

=) ^^ :-)

To that person, keep smiling... Just so you know, I'll keep on praying for you. God is with you and God bless you... ^^

A short funny story.

And so as i drove to send Mom to work, we were talking and until we recalled about this one funny incident@conversation between my cousin Fione and my niece Amber. Amber (or 'ber-ber' we call her) is 6 years of age. 

Cousin: "Ber-ber, what is ur kg?" (Kilogram)

Ber-ber: "I am KG 2." (Kindergarten 2)

Hahaha! cute right... xD

Unedited.

Funny, unedited recordings we did months ago. I found these in my folder and I post it bcos i miss these moments and these vids juuussstt made me laugh. haha..
In the short video, u can see Joshia moving around behind us, ringing phone and the sudden voice that tease us (guh..haha)
The long video shows further interruption and teasing by Bolibs. xD

Songs: Kiss me by The Cranberries
I miss her! Oleh itu, i posted this... =)
Enjoy~

My precious ring

Taken...

I LOVE HIM!

"For God so loved the world that He give His only begotten Son so that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life." John 3:16

My personal sharing:
I attended a wedding just now with dad. On the stage background, it was written - "Love is patient, kind and never gives up. Love never fails." Love between human is something valuable. BUT, NO earthly love on this earth can ever, and i mean EVER replace God's love for me and you. No earthly love can be compared to God's love. That's something big, and i really mean it BIIIGGG.

I feel like I'm not worthy to post this video because I know I'm a sinner. And knowing that Jesus died for me so that I can be saved, I feel *speechless*.
Utterly speechless. But I'm posting this because this love must be known by all people (because Jesus has paid the price!). My gratitude for Him overflows and keep overflowing. Thank You, Lord Jesus...

Its been 3 years... but I love Him strongly as the day passes by... Thank You Lord... =')

Something I don't do often. haha.

Honestly, I can't remember the last time I did this silly, vain (yeah, it is actually.) webcam shots. *laughs*
I bought this new webcam recently and its not working in skype. So, i guess the only thing I can do with it is taking pictures! (gosh, I'm so gonna fix that, kalau tidak, sayang luit saja lor..)

p.s.-I have no favourite shot here. But if I must choose, i'd pick the funniest (for me la funny..) which is on the 3rd row, 3 column. I tried to do "the rock" eyebrow raise but I don't look like him instead, i look really funny..haha!

YLTC 2

Venue: Kionsom Retreat Baptist Centre

Date: 30 September – 2 October 2011

            …and so I got there with Kenny only during the second day.

Had a refreshing time there with the Lord.  At this point of writing, I’m not sure what to write (It had been awhile I’d last write something long). Be patient with me and read through patiently as I unwind my packed thoughts while writing this down. I am not sure what to expect when I join this camp. Or maybe, give? But anyhow, I know something’s gonna happen there. So here it goes… These are all during the sermons by Ps. Ong (like before, Imma do it in point form for easy reading and mind-processing) =) :

1) If you love God, you will obey Him.

Love birthes obedience. True love hates sin, it will not have anything to do with sin. We should love God more than our life (obey God). If we truly love God, we will realign our life plan ACCORDING TO HIS COMMANDMENTS and we will stop live life recklessly (dengan sewenang-wenangnya)

If we live in disobedience, we won't experience God's presence because God hates sin!

  

John 14:15-26 [Jesus promised us Holy Spirit] 

Holy Spirit is the spirit of truth. The "world" represents unbelievers. He is not given to the "world" but to God's people. But nowadays, even God's people deny/reject Holy Spirit because they do not know Holy Spirit.

Develop a deep relationship with Holy Spirit. IT IS CRUCIAL (sangat penting!) Because without Him, we would not mature in Christ and would not progress spiritually. Remember that we are from dust and will go back to dust~ Don't depend on our dust-liness strength. (When you think you're strong on your own feet only, think again.) Depend on God (D.O.G.)! We are living our spiritual life because Jesus is alive, He has risen from the dead.

Stop being hypocrite and stop living for this "world". It is harder to live for Satan than for Jesus. Living for Jesus gives us joy, peace, serenity and harmony (It does!!)

Live righteously (Hidup dalam kekudusan). Don't follow your emotions but fear the Lord. (Yeah, don't let your emotions deceive you. I've been there and it really stings. Deal with your emotions, trust me, Holy Spirit will help you get through it. You'll be amazed!) 

Live a life with principles (of God, of course~), according to His commands.

2) PADI (bukan mamam...)

John 15:8-13 [Be fruitful]

P- persekutuan@fellowship

A- alkitab

D- doa

I- injilkan

No matter what, protect the body of Christ by obeying His words and be wise... Live for Jesus, not for your emotions. 

When choosing a partner, think carefully and PRAY. Don't rush but ask God about it and listen (when listening, come to God with a neutral mind because sometimes we tend to create an answer and assume that its God's voice padahal suara hati kita sendiri!) [Jangan tersenyum2 baca nie blog sudah la ah..]

See how things go about that person. Is he suitable or not? Does he fear God or not? Does he say grace when during your 1st date or not? 

(Notice that boy-girl relationship is very much highlighted during the camp, right? I think its a call for youths to really rise up and make a difference in our distorted youth lifestyle. Biar orang nampak kita lain daripada yang lain. Sebab they need to know the truth and the truth will set them free~~~ Dare to be different! One influenced person can influence the rest of the people ^^) 

If I am spiritually healthy, I will proclaim the Good News to people no matter how.

After this camp, when you're alone, satan will IMMEDIATELY attack you through your mind, play around with your thoughts, try his best to inject negative thoughts in your head. FIND an accountability partner!!! Don't be alone and keep all your feelings to yourself! Join fellowship... (In our fellowship, we share what we've gone through the days and just share to the group what we are having and we'd encourage one another through His words and lastly pray for one another. So, fellowship IS important!)

Final thoughts: Every camp, God is giving something new in each and every one of us. Keep expecting more from God. Keep your fire burning. Be sensitive to Holy Spirit. If you fall, quickly run to Jesus and confess your sins. He is ready to forgive... 

"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just 

and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." -1 John 1:9

I don't know when we will meet again but till we do, lets keep on praying for one another and be an agent of transformation that carry God's love wherever we go. Ada Amen? 

Amen... ^^

WhatIsSheTyping??

I feel nervous. Like, being the goalkeeper waiting for the ball to come (or maybe got hit by the ball) and its like, “There’s a ball coming and it will surely come. And when it comes, it won’t be nice but its gonna be hard and rough. Argh!!!”

Oh well, this phrase would be said only if the goalkeeper is me. *laughs* But this is the picture of what I’m feeling now.

I know its stupid to type this in blog but AM I READY? (“cheer up! You are ready…”)

SEA is one situation that I have learned to handle. It takes sometime to learn it. THIS is something different than SEA. What makes me actually nervous is knowing that I don’t know what is waiting for me. I only know there are stakes that I’m gonna take and the stakes are high. I just pray that as time goes by, I will learn and learn and eventually this will be an experience that I can share with others. I guess lotsa people experience this, huh? =)

Answering to my post title, I’m writing (or expressing) down what  I call as –Self motivation! (according to my way)

Just feel like saying...

A story to tell:

"I lose this friend of mine recently (well, not physically). I'm not quite sure how to put it in proper words but it hurts. It happened informally. No words is said but action speaks louder than words. 

I'm dissapointed. But I'm not gonna blame that friend for what he's done. Its his right anyway."

Another story to tell:

"I have a friend. He is everything I could ever asked for. When I confide to him, he would listen. Eventhough I may sound boring to others but with him, its different. I never thought a person like that existed. Until I came to know him. What I'm typing now sounds so POETIC but I mean it. Each season in my life, he is there. Itsumo... All my hurts and joys I share with him. I know with him, I am secure. 

And most of all, he loves me. And I love him. Very much."

Here's the bottom line of both this stories:

Things may change. Friends may change. They may come and go. Lovers may come and go. Money may come and go (and vanish!). Beauty may come and go (and rot!). Brain@IQ may come and go (and slow as you get old!). My first story is saddening. He is a good friend but unfortunately we are not friends anymore. I let him go as an amigo. My second story is heart-lifting. He is a good friend eventhough I have not seen him yet. His name is Jesus. He remains the same, yesterday, today and forever...And I'm glad I found him.  ^^ Gaining and losing is the essential in life. But one verse I found that strengthen me is in Job 1:20-21

"Then he fell to the ground in worship and said: "Naked I came from my mother's womb, 

and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;

may the name of the Lord be praised.""

Job lose his properties and sons and daughters. In a nutshell, he lost his everything and even became very poor. But these are the first thing that came out from his mouth as a response to these situations. I just pray that as time gets by, I will understand what is it really mean by living by faith and not by sight.

Be blessed!

Nethy.

Netto. Debo. Yoyo.

Our Yoyo(s)

Somewhere in August this year in Cupcake Calendar... Miss the moments... 

See ya next year again~ (Or end of this year but fingers crossed!)

Mistake among mistakes

Its the one mistake I have made. If only i resist myself from doing it, everything couldn'tve happened.
Now I know its too late, it all reveals now........
Silly me, things shouldn't happened another way round but why should it happen like this?
I know, its because of my choice of action.
But its ok, no matter what you think of me, i know the truth myself.
And no matter what people is telling around about me, I know the truth and I will not let myself be disturbed by that nonsense story.
Feel like I'm at a crossroad now, deciding which path to take. Come to think about it again, I feel like its just the early crossroad among many of them, all waiting to show up as time goes by....
Lord, help me to make a wise decision in this time of decision-making phase of life.

"A new chapter has closed, A new one has opened...."

Don't just get, give la...

Ps. Kenneth from Acts church in Subang ever said this, "You don't find hapiness in getting, getting, getting... But you always find joy, fulfillment, breakthrough, even FREEDOM in giving." 
This is true indeed... As for myself, its easy to have the feeling of getting, getting, getting for MYSELF (in the past). But since Christ came into the picture of my life, everything changed. Giving becomes a norm for me. Giving doesn't mean I'm giving up my money if someone casually asked me for it. Giving can be in a vast forms. Listening attentively to someone also means giving, in a way that you are giving your time to listen to that person. Sharing is also a type of giving.
However, giving may also means to give away what you have if the other person seriously needed it. Recently I've been cleaning up my room and I've found out that there's a lottttt of clothes in my closet. SO many that it literally can't fit into my closet. Many of these clothes are still in good form but instantly, my thinking gets to - "Other people's closet might be empty... Some may have only few clothings... Some may not even afford to buy it..." So I give away the clothes and pass it on to the needy and even the younger generations.
Giving advise is also a form of giving. An advise is most of the time what a person needs. Most people are dying to hear a sensible, wise, right advise and they would go for counsellor, phyciatrist, etc... But here's the good news for believers: God is giving us advises so that we may able to advise to others. THOSE advises are God's wisdom which can be trusted and be passed on from one to another.

This post sums up what's going on in my life currently now. I feel like my life does not belong to me anymore. It belongs to Him (doesn't mean I have to give up my life physically, okay....?) and now its about living for Him. It may sound dull for you but it sounds great for me. Why? Because, why not live for Him? I can think of many reasons but the ultimate one is because - He already gave up His life for me on the cross! How great is that? =D

In short, Jesus showed me whats it really mean to give, which is so that others can have life and life abundantly. ^_^

Netto.

My treat at Le Safran. =)

For the first time ever, after i got my pay I've decided to treat my Mom something delicious. Yesterday both of us went to Le Safran in Suria Sabah, a French restaurant that serves French delicacies including desserts.

Yes, I’ve been there once before and tasted their desserts. It was delicious. My favourite is Tiramisu. The sweetness and bitterness of it is totally balanced. Mom loved it too. =)

The Red Velvet cake looks really red and although the topping is sweet, it has too much colouring which contribute to its intense bitterness (yeah, it was intense when I tasted it). The blueberry tart was nice too but Mom thinks it was just the same like other blueberry tart she’d tried before. [Sounds like someone is a food critic. Hehe..]

Anyhow, out of the 4 desserts that we ordered, only two of them we enjoyed the most: Tiramisu and Lychee something² (I forgot the name). 1 thing I like about this restaurant is the ambience. Almost everything is white! It’s got a really cozy and laid back atmosphere, an ideal  place to relax, have meeting and maybe surfing..? (they got WiFi…) The pricing I would say may be around RM35 – RM45 per person. Overall I would give 3.5/5 for the food and 4.5/5 for the ambience. =)

We had a great day ! (not only the eating part but also spending quality time together) ^^

not-important.

Frustrated.

Sad. (hurt?)

Cry.

Sob. (maybe not.)

CalmDown.

Pray. (#1!)

Smile.

Sleep. (yea...)

YL camp (8-10 July '11)

We went to this camp only on the second day. We couldn't make it on the 8th. But thank God for His goodness and perfect timing that we can join the camp! I learned so much through this camp.

I really wanna share it to all but couldn't find the time to blog this down. Yet, here I am now seated in front of this lappy, eager to share/bless y'all... =)

(Imma do it in point form so it might appear clearer.)

1. Beragama@Bertuhan? (Religious@Godly?)

Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit. - John 3:6

The most important thing is not about denominations or religions, but its about having a personal relationship with God and truly knowing Him.

For God so loved the world that He gave His only son that whosoever believe in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life! - John 3:16

Through our faith in Jesus Christ, we have become children of God. Everlasting life is more than heaven. It starts when one receive Christ! Everlasting life does not starts in heaven, its about knowing God (truly knowing Him) here on earth! It doesn't matter how long we live on earth, what's most important is the quality of life we lived for Him. (Quality not quantity.)

"Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, 

the only true God and Jesus Christ, whom you sent."

- John 17:3

2. God is a loving God, He's not a dictator.

At the camp, pastor shared about his testimony upon meeting someone who said to him (face to face) that God is a cruel God. He justified his saying by stating - that unless we believe in Jesus, we are doomed for hell. How cruel is God for asking us to believe first in order not to go to hell. In other words, he is saying that God is simply a dictator.

But pastor answered him wisely that he is wrong and will always be wrong because he is thinking with his human, fleshly mind. This was his reply to the man accusing God of being cruel:

We are already placed under punishment, not because we don't believe in Jesus but because of sin! 

Since the fall of mankind into sin, all human beings are doomed for hell. Whether we like it or not, we are already under God's punishment (di bawah hukuman). So God sent His only Son to redeem us so that we will not perish but have everlasting life! To believe in Jesus is not a torture or a death sentence, it is the only way out!

This makes me think for a moment after hearing pastor said all this. How many people have fallen into Satan's lies? This priceless truth I hope everyone will catch it and keep it in their mind and our God is a loving God, not the other way round. In 2009 I have been born again. Never even once I ever regret it. All of us who is in Him are His children. Amen? (Amen...)

Galatians 3:26-29

3. Obey obey and obey...

Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee form you! 

James 4:7

Our mindset plays a vital role in directing the path we should take in life. We should want to live a healthy lifestyle, as God want us to live. Obedience to God makes us more mature in Him. The more we obey, the more we will get to know Him and the more we mature in Him. To obey God is to love Him. Many Christians have too much informations regarding the Word of God but there are very seldom fruits that one can see from that person's life. Impression without expression leads to depression! Too often we got ourselves impressed with the sermon by pastors and leaders but we do not put it into action. This will create depression within our inner man (Holy Spirit).

Apply the knowledges you gained and God will transform you and you will be submissive to His leading.

When we obey Him and His kingdom, we can fight the devil. Those who do not submit to God finds it very hard to fight the devil! Satan is powerless. He is a CREATED being and his power are lying and deception (penipuan). That's why he is called as "the father of all lies". We have the power given from God to fight against satan. But first we have to change our mindset that we are victorious & have the power to resist the devil. Stop living in defeat because its all been done by Jesus on that cross 2011 years ago! The devil is afraid of Jesus' blood.

When we realise that we're actually in a battlefield and not a playground, we will become more aware of our role in Christ! To fight against satan, we must know, understand and memorize God's Words.

4. Draw near to God...

"Come near to God and he will come near to you. 

Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded."

- James 4:8

Once we take the initiative to draw near to God, He will surely draw near to us. Wherever we go, always remember God. Talk to Him wherever you go. (pray without ceasing)

Also, in order to totally focus on God we must not let the desires of our hearts drown us and bind us in chains.

5. Live by faith, not by sight.

As the children of Israel goes out from Egypt and into the promised land (but first through the desert), they complain and murmur among themselves. As the result of their action of disobedience, they did not go into the promised land that God promised them. Only Caleb and Joshua entered the promised land because of their faith in God. Read Numbers 13-14.

Complaining is a silent killer that kills severely. And in this case, their complains kills and cancel out God's promise for them. This apply for us even today! Whether we notice it or not, we have the power to cancel out God's promises in our life. Gossip is the major disease that spreads so easily nowadays. God hates gossip and so should we as His children. So don't miss out and never take God for granted! We should want to see how God looks at us and not how people look at us because at the end of our life, it will all down to between you and God. 

Let's pray for God's protection upon us and continue strengthening us according to His ways!

Let's bless bless and continue to bless! Yeehaa~~ =)

Reminiscing the day (06.06.09)

Wedded, in which it means baptised, to the One that I love. Why do i reminiscing that day, u may ask? Because I remembered that significant day that symbolizes my ACT of commitment and vows to my Savior that changed my life's purpose forever. What life purpose has changed, u may ask? It is more of Him, less of me.

I remember on the 6th of June 2009... After I got baptised, I told my friends about it excitedly and shared with them this great news. All of them congratulated me. I feel special that day. Its like a wedding day, but with an unseen Bridegroom. However, I see Him through my faith to Jesus.

Now, two years had passed. I had ups and downs. I am still learning more about Him. He is truly my Lord and Savior, my bestfriend, my Father...eternally!

One thing I never regret is what I decided on that day - to leave my past and to grab hold of my future in Him and with Him.

God bless!

Amazing Jesus...

Here's what happen,
I was going to write a post in this blog about something about me. But then, after watching this video in Facebook, shared by a sister in Christ (she's studying in bible school in Singapore now),
I wanna share this great testimony to all of my blog readers and to all who just accidentally came across my blog. =)
Rather than talking and share 'bout me me me me me, let's see how great and amazing is Jesus, my Lord and Saviour!
Indeed, He deserves all the praise!

Here's what the testimony is it about: (caption do not belongs to me.)
On a two-week trip to Iran, American missionary Dan was arrested at the border and detained for 9 weeks. During that time he almost lost all hope until Jesus appeared to him in his cell and gave him the strength to go on.

Commitment?

Its one of the important things in life that one must make and arrange wisely.

This is also one thing that I am learning to arrange properly and wisely, especially nowadays and days months to come. I can't remember one night (couldn't remember which night) when mum & I was sitting at the kitchen, I was listing down all that I have to do this holidays (4 months holidays!). All the things I do I list it down in a piece of paper, just to make myself clear, and to organize it. Most importantly, priority is very important. There could be lotsa commitments one can make. But one should prioritize it accordingly: The important thing must come first no matter what and continued by the less important thing (as compared with the important thing).

It would make your life simpler when you know in what area you should put more effort into. =)

Let's face today!

I'm nervous about today. Can you tell? hmph.
Praying for strength and wisdom~
Asking for perseverence and peace right now.
Amen.

A song to share: When I cry

Written by Marshall Hall and Benji Gaither 

Makin' a list of all of the good things you've done for me.
Lord, I've never been one to complain.
But, right now I'm lost, and I can't find my way.
My world's come apart, and it's breakin' my heart.
But it helps to know; that your heart is breaking

When I cry, You cry. When I hurt, You hurt.
When I've lost someone, it takes a piece of You too.
And when I fall on my face, You fill me with grace.
Cause nothing breaks Your heart, or tears You apart
Like when I cry.
Alone in the dark, face in my hands cryin' out to You.
Lord, there's never been a time in my life,
There's so much at stake, there's so much to lose.
But I trust it to You. You'll bring me through.
And it helps me to know that I'm not alone.
You're the one who calmed the raging sea.
You're the one who made the blind to see.
You looked through all of heaven and eternity,
And through it all you saw me.

p.s.-This song I dedicate to all those who is facing a hard situation, where all you can do is cry. Its OK to cry but don't let the cry/situation get you. Come to Him who knows all your need and loves you. =)

Today. (I mean yesterday)

We had our youth outing yesterday at Mompoit river. It was awesome. The scenery alone was nice. The river was nice. We had a great time swimming and enjoying the untouched nature over there. Here's what happen:

Being excited, I swam all over to the upper level of the river. The current was quite strong. The floor of the river was deep, some not so deep. After going through the water and climbing up the rocks to the upper level, I casually placed my hand on the pocket of my pants and I went "Aaaaaahh~!" 

Guess what? It get all soaked up by water. My handphone. Seriously, I didn't realise it was WITH me 'coz I thought I've left it in my bag. (OK, so a lesson learned.) I quickly pass it to Caleb and I think Len helped me to dry it off under the sun. Well, being in the water, I turned my attention to enjoying the river. It was really fun...... =) 

After we got back home, after the handphone has totally dried off I turned it on. It eventually didn't. I'm really upset but since I guess I feel more tired than worry about it. Later that evening, before going to our family potbless dinner in Kolopis I try to switch it on again. To my utmost surprise, it blinked and it was fine! thank God for everything! The moment we surrender everything to Him, He will surely take care of us because He never leave us nor forsake us. =)

"Cast all your anxiety on Him because 

He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7

Indeed, Amen! ^_^ 

Piano cover

This is a piano cover by i-don't-know-who, where the song played is a soundtrack from "Secret Garden".

I love to hear it when nobody is singing it.

It sounds better with only piano.

Its a soothing song and can also serves as a lullaby. ^^

"Through the rain" + "The trip"

Ever since I was a young kid, i've always enjoyed playing in the rain. Regardless of getting sick, I wouldn't care much. I feel its raining now. Altho' its a different kinda rain, I'm soaking it now. There seemed to be no end to this rain. I believe there's a reason for every hardship aka problem.

When complaining and running away seems to be the shortest way out from a mess, I'm learning to stay still and think wisely before doing anything. People say friends may come and go, lovers may come and go but family stays on forever. And I thank you God for having my family right now. And also to my relatives and friends who encouraged me through the 'rain' that I'm having now.

This is not a long post. I just feel like writing to show my appreciation to my loved ones, far and near, seen and unseen... God bless y'all.. =)

Okay, another story:
Anyway, its good to be home. The vacation trip was simply one of my most memorable memories! ^^ Altho i must admit that I can't live long in a city like KL. I think I'll suit better with nature around me and not tall buildings.haha.. Genting was fun too but I found out myself wondering how my homeland is better than Genting. (OK, and my mum agree me with this okay...) But if there's a next time for a trip again, why not?
Debbie joined us after we got back from Genting. On the final night, we had a great great great time just talking 'bout life and sharing and talking 'bout our studies 'n future... and praying and sharing and laughing and praying and laughing and crying and reading the bible and listening to each other, advising each other and praying for each other... I would call it our singletons' night. (ok, that does sound quite okay..hehe..)

Snapped by wo de papa.  

In front of twin tower during the final night. The shot? by us lor.. ^^

Speechless.

Tomorrow we're leaving for KL. I should be happy and excited for this. Although I do feel that but something's not right... Yeah... That's the thing that is not right. Right now, I feel more sad than happy.
I know I'm supposed to be strong but I can't be fake. I don't want and hate to be hypocrite. I'm speechless right now. I don't know what went wrong. I really don't.
Yeah, time will tell. Even it is for a long time, there will be an end to all this. I just feel like crying.
Give me the strength, Lord. While I'm waiting for that to happen, i will serve You.

On the 18th May 2011....

Japhia is born! I have another niece... And another one coming next month... More kiddies and cuties in the family.. ^^

I know I sounded really excited and all... BUT, whatever it is... I can't wait to see my niece! Aww... wee~ ^^

Dear Lord, thank You for this day... =) 

Bless her and protect her all the way through her life... In Jesus' name. Amen..

For I give, I forgive.

It doesn't matter what I do, I'm bankrupt without love. (1 Cor 13)

When someone hurt you, to be emotional and react with anger seems to be the shortest way to make yourself feel better. I did that and I regret it terribly. What I did was stupid and not based on love.

"A gentle answer turns away wrath" (Proverbs)

If time could turn back, I would not act so abruptly.

These days I learn to forgive and forgive and forgive. I learn a lot about forgiveness.

Time to move on now. 

Let all the past be the past as it is in the past. It doesn't belong in the present. Don't let it ever cling onto you and make you suffer.

Here's a clear statement: 

iforgiveyouforwhatyou'vedone.

Because God has first loved me, I am able to forgive you and love you with the love of Christ. 

Happy Mother's Day~

To all mothers, young and old, Happy momma's day! ^^

My dearest Mamita is not at home at the moment. She's is KL now but coming back later tonight. 

Here's some pictures of us together. 

I searched in those folders I seldom open and I found these.....which made me smile... 

Having her as my mother is a blessing and one of the most precious things that exist in my life.

All the scoldings she threw at me only meant for my benefit, never hers. 

Those times we laughed, argued, cried and talked together made her so special in my life.

Not only as a mom but a best friend of mine as well! We shared almost everything (and i think everything...)

Except for clothings (^^"), we shared almost every stuffs too. From books to shoes. 

I of the naughtiest reply I ever said to her when I did wrong or annoy her was, "Well mom, its genetic." And she would give me that look that says 'ceh-yalah-tue'. But of course, I don't answer that EVERY TIME to her la... (memang siap kena goreng masak2 kalau selalu la..hehe..)

Another precious moment with my mom was when I was in school. I did a veeeeery childish and absuuuuurd request (can't remember clearly la..) that I ended up crying because mom didn't want give me what I wanted. It was horrible. I was crying and she was scolding me very badly. But at the end, she sits next to me on my bed hugged me and said, "You are my only daughter in this world. If I could give you everything, I would. But in 'that' case (which is my stupid request la), I couldn't afford. I love you and Matiu very much!" She cried a bit while saying those words.

Those are the sweetest, most earnest words I've heard from my mom. I ever write it down (hehe..).

Well, the bottom line of whole thing is that - I love my mom. ^^ I may not be perfect in words and maybe sometimes actions but having her is a gift from God. Thank You, Lord. ^^

Wo de papa, mama, little brother Matiu he wo.

Love them much much! XOXO

 To all readers, hug your mom like you never did. Surprise them by that small action of just a hug. 

It may seem typical, but if you really mean it, I'm sure she'll appreciate it. 

And do be generous in saying "I love you as well". You might always, seldom or never do it, it doesn't matter. Take this time to say it to her. It'll lighten up not only her day, but also her life. ^^

(I was a bit shocked when I found this picture 'coz I thought I've deleted it already.)

Where you go I go

- Kim Walker (Jesus Culture)

Where you go I go
What you say I say
What you pray I pray

Jesus only did, What he saw you do
He would only say, What he heard you speak
He would only move, When he felt you lead
Following your heart, Following your spirit

How could I expect to walk without you
When every move that Jesus made was in surrender
I would not begin to live without you
For you alone are worthy you are always good

You are always good
You are always good
Always good
Always good

Though the world seems to forget
We will not forget
Who you are and what you've done for us

You are my God
(repeat 5x)

What if you have 1 day left to live?

There's a camp called Life Game coming up this end of this month. Its big question about this camp is - What if you have 4 days left to live?

I reduce it to one day, with a purpose. With one day, there's not much you can do left. With one day, you'll tend to prioritize the most important things in life to deal with before everything is over. What happen if this is the one day that is left for me? For you?

If it was me, being at this age right now, I would cancel all my duties and would first gather my family around me, talk to them and make sure I hug each and everyone of them. I would apologize to those whom i have wronged unconciously or conciously. I would donate all my belongings to those who are in need. I would stop and appreciate every face that I have known. I would give thanks to God who created me and give me breath to live this far. I would tell my loved ones, family and friends, how much i cherish them and how much i love them. To those who hurt me, I'm gonna smile and say, "I forgive you."

With that one final day, I would not shed a single tear and smile joyfully as if it was just the beginning of life. I would look to the sky and remember Him who is always there for me, in joy and in sorrow, in sickness and in health... I would ask forgiveness from the Almighty who is ever-loving and faithful for all the sins and mistakes that I've done. I would spend more time with my family and tell them the goodness that He has done to me and asked them to spread the testimonies. I would sing and dance and shout and sing praises to His name!

But most importantly, I would tell my loved ones about the everlasting love I have received from Him. Because in the end, it ain't matter how much I have achieved, the only thing that matters is how much love I've shown to people around me.

What would you have done in that one final day?


Sincerely written thoughts by me.

What a paper... =)

Today's topic in this blog of mine will be on my exam paper that I have sat this morning.
Statisical Programming Package or SPSS, in short. This morning started all good. Had my breakfast with Mamita and after sending her to work, I went straight to campus.
It was all good while answering the paper. Until~! Guess what happen?
I forgot some formulae. It was actually the formula for standard deviation. Gosh. I've learned it before. But I was totally blank when I was about to write down the formula and calculate. Its OK if it only involves 1 question. But there are quite few questions that require s.d.. I got anxious. Because I couldn't afford seeing the marks all deducted for the reason of not remembering one easy peasy standard deviation formula (if it was a tougher complicated formula, I might not get anxious la..)

I completed everything and tried my best to remember the formula. I started praying. And I was really asking for help (and i think i verbally whispered it as well. so anxious.can't remember.hehe).

It was all a miracle. Because after trying to figure the formula with many different formulae that I have written down, (Thank You Lord!!!) i finally got it. I wasn't sure if that's the real formula but confidently I just use that formula. After the exam ended, I asked my friend Salley who sit next to me if the formula if correct. She nodded. I instantly lightened up and smile brightly, saying in my heart, "Thank You, Lord..."

If not because of His help, I wouldnt've answered those questions confidently. ^^
I know its only a matter of a formula but I'm glad I did my best and with His guidance, I know my days are all secure in His hand!

Thank You! Thank You! Thank You!

p.s.- A few marks less or more can make a difference of failing and passing, A or B, or maybe.... A or A-? No? ^^

Repentance.

"Repentance is of fundamental importance to man as it is to God. Its effects are not only felt and seen on earth but manifest in heaven too, repentance was one of Jesus’ first messages. It was one of his central topics too. Many of Jesus’ teachings and especially his parables include an element of repentance." 

-from http://www.atotheword.com/2011/01/09/jesus-teaches-importance-of-repentance-with-parable-of-lost-sheep/

Plagiarism in blogging is a wrong thing to do. So i include the link to this as well. Its one blog that I recommend!

God says repent and sin no more.

Yes indeed. Repent, and sin no more. =)

Voice out~ Out of voice?

I can hardly speak with my normal tone. Lost my voice since yesterday. Dad and Mom gave me a glass of "Takob Akob" + Honey and i had it right before going to bed last night. Today I woke up feeling better. But still, I sound really different but not like a duck (that's the good part..haha..) 

Some people said I get thinner. Normally I don't get troubled when I heard that. But now i do. I personally realize that I am getting thinner. Is it because not eating? Or because exam-syndrome (pandai2 sy buat term baru) or fatigue? Or have I lost the apetite? I hear the alarm ringing anyway...

EXAM starts this week. Not today (fuhhh good thing..) All the best to all who's sitting exam and strive for the best not the good. =)

Just 3 weeks plus! Can't wait to meet Debbie the Debo..hehehe.. ^^  

Last Saturday was the church dedication/opening. All went well. Praise God. More works to come.

After all, when more is given, more is required back. Till then~

God bless us all!