A thought on relationship

I probably have written how Gan and I met back in 2012, but just for the record (again), we've known each other for over 5 years and has been in a relationship for 3 years and 9 months!

Never have I imagined being in a serious and steady relationship for such a long time. Plus, to be honest, 3 years felt so short yet so long! At times we would look at each other and just wonder how awesome and blessed is our journey through the years as a couple, as bestfriend, as fighters.

Let me just roughly (hopefully roughly) lay out how we journey as - first - a couple:

We love each other very much. The joy we experience in this relationship comes from the blessings released by our parents. Also, as we focus more on Abba, our joy increases too! We encourage one another without withholding the truth we need to hear (even if it's painful).

As bestfriends: Since we heavily stress on honesty between us, we don't keep secrets from one another. We know each other so well that we would know if something is wrong even by looking at our countenance!

One thing that I love about us is that WE TALK. Sometimes we do have times where we're just comfortable being silence with each others' presence, but we talk about MANY things. Random things, deep stuffs, controversial stuffs, funny/lame stories, silly stuffs, even to trivial matters.

Last but not least, we also journey as fighters. We are not street fighters (you know, those who fight publicly in the street. Side note: OK this is one of those lame jokes I put my effort in without realizing it haha..), but whenever we got into a fight -be it passive or active fight- we would fight for the truth. You know the time when your ego got the best of you in a fight, say disagreement? It happens to us as well and most of the time we would use words (and even harsh, cold silence) to fight the other person. However, I'm thankful that we stick to the truth that helps bring us closer to understand and hence, love each other.

For instance, I would normally be the one who uses silence to defend myself (and indirectly fight) from being hurt/offended by Gan. Gan, being the verbal one and likes to settle things well, will probe me to open up and come out of my cave. Normally I wouldn't bug (such a cave girl laa), but when he would remind me about what the fight would cost, and how it would give foothold to the enemy to put a wedge between us, I would go "Ya, that's true. And I don't want that to happen." 

Yet, in the beginning of our relationship, it was very hard for me to open up and share how I feel, but as the years passed by it got easier and I know how to share better.

Same goes to Gan. When he got away with his feeling, I learned how to NOT cave in but to communicate it properly. It's always always good to communicate from the heart, and not just to avoid further conflict (yet still hold grudges). 

We fight. But during the fight, we are aware that we are also fighting for the truth.

The ultimate question is this: Is the fight for the truth worth fighting for?

I would definitely say YES! 

Nothing sets us free than knowing that we love each other so much that we would fight for the truth. When we are free, we are more able to love each other with a love that doesn't shrink in fear but stands firm in the face of fear.

I love my bestfriend, and I thank God we found each other.

Nethy

Bon voyage! (Part 1)

Mariner of the Seas - one of the many Royal Caribbean cruise ships - was where we spent 5D4N last week. We started from Marina Bay Cruise Center, Singapore - Port Klang, Malaysia - Phuket, Thailand - Cruising at sea - back to Singapore. Instead of posting pictures of Facebook, I figured out that I might as well write a comprehensive post (or maybe not THAT comprehensive) about it.

I saw pictures of the ship before the cruise, but looking at it with my own eyes I have to say - it is indeed HUMONGOUSLY GIGANTIC! It has a total of 15 decks and able to take up 3,700 human beings. I've seen a cruise ship. But definitely not this big. Bear in mind that I tried to select the best pictures that portrays the voyage we embarked and I guess in the end, most pictures are so post-worthy (hence this lengthy post).

First of all, I thank God I did not have a single moment of being seasick (as I did before in a ship years and years earlier). I overheard someone in the cruise ship said that it cost 135USD just to see a doctor on the ship. *gulp*

A visit to Pagoda Street, Singapore. I couldn't help but to keep on saying 

this place reminds me of Penang Art Town.

Meeting cousin Clare and Ata for dinner.

Checking in at the Cruise Center

 As I mentioned earlier, HUMONGOUSLY GIGANTIC. This thing is literally a moving building.

One of the main dining rooms on deck 3 - Rhapsody of the Blues.

Look familiar? *whispers:Titanic*

View from deck 5 dining room - Sound of Music

Royal Promenade (Deck 5)

This is where people gathers to hang and shop around.

Royal Promenade (Deck 5): Where pizzas, desserts, coffees, teas, 

sandwiches are endless (hence the crowd)

Loving the Christmas decorations all over the ship <3

As the song goes, it's the most wonderful time of the year~

This painting had me staring at it intently. So much emotions going on.

One of the many bars on the ship.

On the first evening, DreamWorks Characters did an awesome parade along the Royal Promenade that keeps the young, younger and youngest (dua kali lima sama sija semua) excited and dancing.

Internet lounge. Disclaimer: It is not free. It is costly.

Mom saw this and she sang the Halleluia (no not literally of course.)

Whirlpool just outside the gym. Deck 11.

Inside the Savoy Theater. About to watch a movie in 3D.

Skylight Chapel on Deck 15. Eventually it's only functional when there are 

couples who intent on getting married on the ship.

Art Gallery on Deck 3

Gym.

The Savoy Theater on Deck 4

The talented classical guitarist - Misael

Wayfinder is found on every deck. It shows what's happening, tentatively, on the cruise. It also show you where's the nearest washroom, dining rooms, etc.

Very very informative. Personally speaking, too many things to choose to do at the same hour. So you really have to know what you really want to do otherwise you'll end up doing nothing. They have things happening simultaneously at different places on the ship.

One of the most populated place - Deck 11 - the pool (adult and children)

Solarium (Deck 11): Adult-only pool

This is my favorite spot on the entire ship. Seriously. You can swim, relax, read, sleep and repeat.

Adult only jaccuzi

It's 5PM and we embarked the journey to the next port of call - Port Klang

So this marks the end of the first part of this entry about our trip.

Day 1 out of 365 days of 2015

Last night was one of the most relaxing, calming New Year countdown ever. In fact, we didn't even do the countdown. We were just talking and enjoy each other's presence when we heard fireworks after fireworks. That's when we realized its 2015!! Being with family is, indeed, one of the best places you could be on earth. Especially during New Year's eve. Waking up on the first day of the year is a struggle. Partly, well, because I'm sure everyone sleep late.

Well, at last, dear 2015, you are here. I almost felt like butterfly thinking about entering a whole new year. Butterfly means excited as well as anxious and anticipating something. I jokingly told my mom that I'm gonna be a quarter life this year and I somehow feel 'old'. I guess its true then, enjoy and appreciate life especially when you are younger and active. Make the most out of it. Just like what was written in 1 Timothy 4:12. ;)

As I ponder upon the end of 2014, its also quite tragic with the floods in West Malaysia and crashed plane few days after Christmas. As we enter into this year with laughter and warm wishes from dear friends and family, my heart goes out to those who are crying and grieving as they enter into a New Year without their loved ones. For some people, its going to be an exciting year but, to some people it may be challenging.

Look up. Sun is still shining. Birds are still chirping. We are still breathing. Every day counts in God's eyes. So make it count. He is the One who allow us to enter this new year, new season.

Thank You for bringing us into a New Year, Lord.

Nethy

Dancing with me Amor

I don't think I'm the only one experiencing this in my spiritual journey with God. Yesterday, I felt like I'm on the verge of bursting. Its as if I'm carrying this whole loads of burden and pressure that makes me feel somewhat - low.

At that low point, I couldn't find a way to rejoice or even feel His closeness. It was about time to go for prayer meeting and my mind tells me, "You can skip one night. It's OK." 

At that low point, I was negotiating within my brain - to go or not to go.

At that low point, I was ready to give in to my reasoning and physical emotions.

But somehow, I knew. I knew where I should be at that moment. In His house. In His presence.

So before my human mind made up its mind, I take control of every thought and decided to go.

As soon as we enter into a time of worship, God began working in me. The tears are flowing as if they are waiting to be released into the open. I felt His hands embracing me and restoring me. I could feel His love dancing over me, inviting me to dance with Him. And so it continued, for what it seems for more than an hour. In His deep, tangible presence. And at the end, I knew. I was restored. The tears that flowed out was replaced by living water - Jesus Himself. The burden was lifted. Or it became lighter. And I heard Him saying, "Look to me. Fix your eyes upon me." In a serious tone. Like a loving Father saying to a helpless child.

And then I knew. I was rest assured. He is always with me. And the joy of knowing that, and His unstoppable love, is beyond ah-ma-zing !

Come before God (not man) and cry out to Him (not man) for what person could be more better than the One who loved us first?

And I can tell you that you can smile before man. And any situations seems bearable simply because that joy in you weighs more than your problems and situations.

Love,

Nethy

First Fruit Gathering: 4-6 June

Sabah is known to be the land below the wind. I love Sabah. I thank God for putting me here. I always know that the birthplace of everyone is never a coincidence. (If things are coincidence, then our existence is a mistake. Coincidence means something that is not planned. Then, we are actually saying that God is a mistake!) No, God is SUPREME AND JUST. To begin to understand God fully is like trying to fit in the whole oceans into a small hole. Its impossible. Yet, this same God created us and called us His Precious! His thoughts toward us are so vast and mind-blowing. David said that in the book of Psalm : "How precious are your thoughts about me, O God! They are innumerable! I can't even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand!"

Our God is intentional when He decided to create you and me. So that He can love us unconditionally. We are not an accident. Isn't that awesome? If I were to have children, I would make sure they know this foundation truth! I am thankful for a mother who intentionally told me about this truth as I was growing up.

So, all of us are placed on earth for a purpose and calling. Last month we have the second Malaysia Gathering in KL. The theme was First Fruit. During the pre-gathering, I felt an unspeakable excitement and burning in me because I know for sure God is going to do something that we have not expected. True enough, we entered into realm after realm that we have not entered before. The first day of the gathering, the first people of the land (Anak Negeri & Orang Asli) was presented before the Lord. Its amazing to see a lot of brothers and sisters in Christ among the Orang Asli, Chinese and Indians turned up. Its a family reunion! :)

The gathering starts on 4 June night, and it falls exactly on Pentecost! The leaders didn't know about this when they decided on the date. Holy Spirit came and swept us away for the next three days. Papa David shared about be careful when the enemy is trying to put us in a neutral zone, where we don't slip black nor move forward. This is what its called as the attack of dullness. I was reminded in Revelation 3:15 "I know all the things you do, that you are neither hot nor cold. I wish you were one or the other!" Nothing is more worse than being lukewarm. Also, there is an ancient sound in the land that the enemy has forgotten. This ancient sound is the voice of the Orang Asli and the Anak Negeri. Now is the time for this sound to rise up and take authority in the spiritual realm. The enemy fear this sound. We also offered up our first fruit offering which is our worship and praise as we consecrate ourselves before the Lord simply because He is worthy of all the praise!

On the second day of the gathering, spiritual groaning took place during worship. At first there was an intense silence but the moment the flute came in, people started to weep, travail, and groan in the spirit. Romans 8:26 says " We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans." It was unexpected but Holy Spirit knows best. I personally also felt that the atmosphere of the convention centre is almost similar to a labor room. Something was birthed that day. 
There was a Scripture passage given to the people in Sabah, Sarawak and Peninsular Malaysia for 3 times. The leaders felt that if God is speaking about it for 3 times, it means something. This passage was Isaiah 54. Hence, all the leaders did a prophetic act of enlarging the tent, stretching the tent curtains wide, lengthening the cords, and strengthening the stakes. It speaks to the spiritual and spiritual realm that the land is no longer barren but it will be fruitful!

On the last day, 6 June 2014, it is a new day. It is a new season. The Lord has been leading us is an unusual way. We have not walked this way before. Papa David mentioned that we are in a season where many prophets are speaking of. This new thing, or season, is not only for Malaysia but for nations. However, because of Malaysia's role for nations, this is a pivotal and critical moment for Malaysia to enter into her destiny. We need to positioned ourselves before the Lord, like an army positioned themselves until their commander gives the command. As an army of God, we reported for duty. And because the things that we do speaks loudly in the spiritual realm, we need to make a sacrifice of faith that says "We believe!" When people of God began to see and hear with their spiritual eyes and ears, there will be a substance that will cause them to move forward.

"Behold! The bride of Malaysia is marching to the nations, following the Lion of Judah!"

Indeed, the gathering birthed something new in Malaysia. And whenever there's a new season, there's joy and wisdom, but there's also resistance. Therefore, the most important thing is to keep on track with God, fix our eyes upon Him and constantly be in fellowship with the Holy Spirit.

Lord, I report for duty.

Your servant.

p.s.- 6 June was also my baptism(or I prefer wedding) day. I was reminded of this only after the gathering.

Life.

Life's not fair. That is one of the most favorite phrase people love to say.

But if life is fair, then it is not life anymore. As much as we get frustrated with life, God has much much to offer us, IF we only take heed of His Words. Everything was broken since the major incident in garden of Eden. So basically, its not a surprise that we have this so-called 'unfair' life.

Some of us are born rich, some poor and some average. Some were born with a genius mind, etc. But all of us were created in God's image. So you have totally NO SAY or be PROUD of what you have. Not even lucky! God planned it all. But here's the interesting part, you see... Every obstacle in life, consider it an opportunity for a greater JOY! The problems or difficulties that you are facing with right now is actually an opportunity for you to grow. After that problem is solved, then it will become a blessing to those who hears it. 

The topic we had earlier today in class is one topic that you don't get often. It reveals what your heart's content is. And yes, it opens up my eyes in a new light. After understanding it, you can't even comprehend the depth, the length, the height and the width of Father's heart for His children. After learning and taste a bit of the Father's heart, life makes more sense in knowing that His love is unconditional, strengthens you and brings tremendous healing!

Taken care of

So, its less than a week. *Counting the days down*
Got my schedule already (Excited) and preparing things. I'm glad I have more time at home these days.

Recently, I've met a good, old friend of mine (unplanned) and had a wonderful time talking to her about things that God is doing in our lives. I was actually quite shocked seeing her because few days before that somehow I was thinking how is she doing nowadays. Glad to know she's doing well and I was surprised listening to her testimony! We shared the same desire of seeing the body of Christ to be united in prayer and fellowship. She is, in fact, one of my friends in Christ who encouraged, prayed and supported me all through the times since I first believed. The interesting part is this: We seldom meet up. But when we do, it will always leave a memory in me. I thank God for such a friend.

Going for SOM is exciting but thinking of the expenses I need while I'm there, well, I can't say I'm not thinking about it. It worries me (in a way). But God's Word says 'He will provide' because 'we are His children' and that 'He will never abandon us nor forsake us'. So holding onto this, I cast all my anxieties to Him. Recently, in church services, during the tithes offering, I've been giving my LAST note of money. With faith, believing He will take care of me. 

[For early info: We used to collect offerings back in Labuan and these money are used for our ministry back then. So after Labuan, we go to different Uni and my friend kept the money and pass it to another friend, and lastly it was passed to me. I hadn't opened it for ages. I even almost forgot I keep it with me all this time.] 

Couple of days ago, I received a text message from this same friend of mine whom I met recently. She asked about the money. She explained that she has asked the others' opinion and they've agreed to let me use it for my 3months study. I was taken aback and speechless for a moment of time (too speechless to reply, in fact). See, God is so good! He knows our needs and He is our provider. Have faith! :)

Grateful and blessed.

Be blessed!

Nethy. Athena.

Thinker.

A random post: One fact of me is that I think a lot. [And also talk A LOT when I'm with those I'm comfortable with. My former maid actually gave me a nickname which means talkative. Hah.] Sometimes so many thoughts are playing in my mind that most of the time I do not know how to speak it out orderly, which leads to being silent. Its kinda frustrating for me to be unable to speak out when you actually wanna say something. And sometimes these thoughts are so many and overwhelming that it can even confuse me.

But thank God for His Words. It says in 2 Corinthians 10:5 that we "fight to capture every thought until it acknowledges the authority of Christ." I listened to this scripture many times before but I couldn't really understand it or apply it practically. What was conceived in this mind of mine is that, most thoughts (except those that are clearly negative ones) are acceptable and debatable. Instead of our thoughts controlling us (and our actions), we are in control of them and we even have the power to block, allow and deny access into our mind. 

Then I'm reminded by Romans 12:2 where it talks about the renewal of mind that brings transformation. During my dark age (as how Debbie say it), I always give in to those discouraging thoughts. What I think basically begin to show in how I act and how I live. Now, it is still a constant battle. But thank God for His Words and revelation, I've learned to fight a good fight. It may seem hard at times but we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us (Philippians 4:13).

Be blessed,

Nethy

GB = Graduation + Birthday

Hello November! Nice to meet you. ^^ 
I know I'm totally late for an October post. But still, I wanna mention two highlights of what and how October went (in a nutshell). I will go briefly specifically.(i just tend to be a lengthy writer at times.)

1. Graduation.
   - 3 years of being a biotech undergraduate
   - Having the opportunity to officially graduate feels awesome. I couldn't believe how the years have passed    by so fast!
   - I love my family. =) I hope I made them proud.

How u spell Family = Father and mother, i love you. =)

2. Birthday
   - So, I haven't really decided how to celebrate my birthday this year actually. My parents decided to 'makan2' at home in conjunction of both success (age and scroll). A big one. I thought not many are coming but it turns out mannnyy. Families... And I'm so grateful to have most church members came that night. One family in Christ, indeed. =)
   - Later on,the night before the day, i went out with my high school besties. There were 5 of us (wish Gloria could join us!) and 3 of us planned a surprise for 2 of us (me & Geraldine). Our birthdays were just 3 days apart.. It was a lovely surprise in Bali Bali Garden. Thanks for the gift! ^^ The waitress came out with the cake after we are done with dinner. Along with the band singing a Happy Birthday song. I just didn't expect they would surprise me in such a public way. haha! 

From left: Ellie, Eca, Geraldine, me & Mel

Eca: my childhood friend, neighbour, teman satu bas skolah, teman main masak2 masa kici (masak Maggie sampai kering tu air. haha!), classmate, schoolmate, ketawa-mate and bestmate. 
Mel: pengawas yg nampak garang, classmate, schoolmate, gengkaras-mate and bestmate.
Ellie: teman seperjuangan di zaman kegemilangan/zaman keremajaan, fashionista (you really have to give me credit on this. haha), classmate, encouraging-mate and bestmate.
Geraldine: Pustakawan paling kiut time highschool, classmate, geng karas-mate, Uni mate (We graduated in UMS at the same time) and bestmate.
Thank you so much! Words can't describe it. And sometimes my actions may not describe it too. But I truly am blessed to have you girls! *groupie hugs* =)
   - One church leader happened to be there with his family at that time. So I cut some cakes for them as well. He is also watching the whole surprise thingy going on. Hohohoh.. 
   - So anyway, after that my friends dared me to sing on stage with the band. I thought of it lightly at first but then thought, Why Not? So I did. As an appreciation of what they have done, I sang LOVE by Frank Sinatra. The band was awesome. We had great time. ^^ We hit Party Play later on for desserts (choc fondant! #yumness)
   - On the night of the real day, I went out with my Uni friends. There, again, I had a second surprise! I thought there was no cake or whatsoever, since we did a surprise a week ago for Sue. When I first arrived at the scene, they were singing me birthday song, so i thought there might be a cake prepared. But there isn't any! Then Acho pulled out his SG Tab and open a candle application. Yessss...that's what you thought it is. I am supposed to blow a digital candle. How impressive is that? XD It did blowed out like a normal candle though. Without the heat and smoke, of course. haha! 
   -While we were talking and chit chatting as we wait for our meals, Acho and Sue came with this cake that came out from nowhere (well, actually, its from my left side XD) and they were singing birthday song to me again (for the second time of the night!)
   -  I laughed my heart out that night. Thanks for the humor. I love the big orange card without pictures on it! Especially the music notes. Pretty! =)

(left) me, Sue, Acho - (right) Mc, Annas, Kenny

Oyoe was the funniest that night without even intending to be funny. Owh! Dan photographer berjaya! Ko break record gambar2 yg diambil sebelum ini. XD
Kenny, as always, the organizer and main planner. (After all, we were partner in crime a week ago. hehe..)
Annas, the cheerful one. Always with the smile and gentleness. tapi beware...garagas mati kopio oi.. :p hehe..
Sue, ko la paling macam Mama2 tapi paling innocent. Tapi, ko juga la partner in crime ni kali. haha. 
Acho, thank you sebab susah2 bwa tu kek dri kadai. haha. And also sbab jaga kawan sia bagus2..hehehe.. 
Mc, thank you sbab sudi turun n celebrate with us!  X sia2 ko dtg, byk mknan dan hiburan yg menyenangkan hati. hohoho.. Plus, jumpa teman sebangsa ko lagi tu (trus kami jadi blur =.=")!

In a nutshell, Thank you, uri chinggu ya! Posting this post is what I can do to show my gratitude (again!). 
God bless y'all! My sincere prayer is that let the friendship sustain through eternity! =)

Be blessed,
Nethy.

A day to bless Malaysia!

Last sunday, 16 September 2012, the whole body of Christ in KK and beyond witnessed and celebrated Malaysia Day together in two big, significant venues - Padang Merdeka & Stadium Likas.

Different venues with the same purpose - A day to bless Malaysia! =)

The morning service starts at 8AM in Padang M.

The praise & worship team, all dressed in their respective traditional attires, led the congregation into deep worship. A very meaningful, solemn morning service I would say. Because exactly 8AM, 49 years ago (16 September 1963), a very meaningful, solemn event has taken place in the same venue.

It was a very touching moment when Pastor Jerry prayed for the land and ask God for forgiveness for our past leaders. I thought I was the only one who got emotional on that. It turns out most of the others felt the same thing! And with so many young people who came and join together in prayer, worship and sitting under the hot burning sun was delightful as well. We even took the Lord's supper together at the end of the service! 

Watching the native leaders to take the lead and made strong, firm declarations of God's words upon the land and the people (everyone!) moved me into thinking - "This is gonna be historical. And we're all watching history in the making." 

Heaven watched. Angels watched. It was awesome! 

 

(Photos courtesy of IterDesly)

(Photo courtesy of Pastor Halbert)

The evening celebration was joyful and awesome as well! Energetic and passionate worship team. Tambouriners. Banner bearers. Flag bearers. Drummers. Shofarers. God is moving people!!

We had a scary weather the night before and we had some disturbances technically. But praise God! He is able to do all things! We had a great night of celebration and fireworks. =)

Witnessing different churches joining in together is simply amazing...! 

Over 10,000 people came. And I'm sure everyone is blessed to be a blessing.

All glory to God. Forever and ever. Amen.

At Stadium Likas

(Photo courtesy of SN)

Iron sharpens Iron

During my first year in campus, I remember waiting for Sue, Kenny and Oyoe to finish class on every Friday and heads off to Glory Place to fellowship together. If one of us is still having class, the rest of us would go to the Piano room while waiting. We would sing and chit chat and laugh and sing some more…

I remember the times in Glory Place where the four of us just pray and worship together, sharing the Word and simply fellowship without any agenda prepared, just hearts seeking God more and more. We would advise one another, pray for one another, intercede, build and even correct one another. It doesn't matter what is our church background because we serve the same God. And trust me, God definitely wouldn't ask about it during judgement. 

After all the busyness in Uni life, minus everything, thinking back of those moments (and others not mentioned here) I am very blessed to have such friends in Christ. J As time goes by, I know we would head for different paths but I know one thing: friendship in Christ would last forever. 

Yet, my bestfriend ever would still be Jesus. He’s the best. Ever. Ever heard of Him? He’s there every second of my life. He can hear my deepest thought although I tried to hide it from everyone. My every doubts and uncertainties are calmed by His reassuring Word of truth. My ugliest secret? He knew it. But He never avoid me, but came to my rescue when I call on His name. My weakness? …is my strength because I can do all things through Christ who strengthens when I am weak. How amazing it is to have such friend! ^^

My point of blogging this post?

Well, the bottom line is that - precious friends may come and go or stay and go. But we should not take lightly of our eternal friend and King and Saviour because He come and stay with us forever. :)

Be blessed!

Blessed Good Friday!

You know Good Friday doesn't mean that friday is good, right? Here I am, after a long time of silence in this blog, just wanna share about what God's goodness. Not only on friday, but everyday...

Busyness. its a word not all people likes. I am one of them. But like it or not, I am bound to finish my lab work ASAP. So, the night before friday i went to lab and work there overnight. As i was driving to campus that evening, I was talking to God casually, speaking in tongue and just talk, in other words - pray. I was reflecting on what He has done on the cross 2012 years back. As i was praying, i realized how much i miss Him. thinking back, my life had been so busy. I truly misses Him.

When i finished my work in lab at 7AM (Yes, a sleepless night indeed), i went home and had only a nap. Then, we went to church for Good Friday service at 10AM. We are all fasting and praying on that day. In the beginning, i wasn't feeling that sleepy. But when it comes to afternoon, it seems almost automatically that my eyes shuts down itself. It was after a testimony that i felt my spirit began to stir slowly. Pastor realized many people are sleepy during that time and she said Do not sleep but try to activate your spirit! I was very sleepy at that moment. Very2 sleepy. I try to ignore my tiredness but i just couldn't help it. But slowly, one at a time, my spirit was being stirred without me realizing it. When we worship that afternoon, i remember myself just giving thanks for Jesus' blood. But as i keep on repeating and giving thanks, something took over me. I felt its as if my SOUL is giving thanks to Him in a great manner. I was overwhelmed! I quickly took a tambourine and began to shake it. As we go more into the worship atmosphere, very quickly, my sleepiness seemed to subside for the time being and i felt my innerman craving for more and more of Him. God is awesome!!

That is why I am a strong believer in God Almighty. (Okay now she's preaching u might say but can u help it if u're in looove with someone? U must tell ur friends or wait, tell the world, right? Now same to this case of mine.) As problems come and as people come and go, guess what, God is faithful. It is just His nature and nothing can beat that. Not even a boyfriend or a husband or a bestfriend. How i wish people could realize that and began to see Him through the problems. God is awesome. What I experienced yesterday only brought me closer to Him.

I hope what I'm sharing here is clear. When my sleepiness was stronger than my desire to worship Him that afternoon, I slowly come to Him JUST AS I AM. As i give thanks to Him, I was only speaking it out but my mind still in a state of exhaustion. However, when i press on (Yes, press on), something happened. My mind and thoughts were brought to captives to the mind of Christ! And as evening comes, I was soaked with gratitude. The cross. His blood. His love for us all. :)

God bless and be blessed!

I am in love. Period.

I had a great time recently in my prayer time. God has been faithful. There are so many things that He revealed to me. And i am so so SO much grateful. Indeed, i am in love with Jesus more than before. My life couldnt've been better without Him. 


Having Him in my life feels just... hmm..awesome... :)


Today is valentine's day. There are people who celebrate this day. Some don't. Some people even argued regarding this day. As for me, i have no feeling at all. It didn't bother me if i celebrate it or not...since i am already in love every day with Him. ^^ There's a verse in Scripture that says "I (God) have loved you with an everlasting love." What a wonderful statement! 


Here's a song that express how my heart overflows right now. Peace. Secured. Loved. And i believe there is more than life... It's a song sang by Kari Jobe called "I'm in Love With You". Be blessed. :)

Can I sing You a song 
Can I pour out my heart 
To say Your love is healing me 
Just a glimpse of Your grace 
And my whole world is changed 
Forever and completely 

I’m in love with You 
I’m in love with You 
I’m in love with You 
I’m in love with You 

Redeemed, made whole 
By the love that You have poured out over my soul 
Restored, I am made new 
Father You only You

The Lord protects.

Last Sunday night, the four of us went to watch movie. The earlier show was full already. So we grab the next one, which starts a bit late (Actually more than a bit). By the time the movie ended, it was passed midnight. We headed straight home after that. Here's what happen...

On the way back from Suria, as we are approaching the traffic light in front of All Saints church (the car is moving at normal speed), we all heard a sharp sound far behind us. Few seconds later, (at high speed) , a mini van just hit the side of our car, sliding all along it including breaking off the side mirror and ran off just like that. We all had the shock. I know I do. Very shocked indeed, because the crash aimed directly at where i sat [behind the passenger sit]. (What puzzles me is that, I totally didn't let out any scream.) I was resting my head near to the door and when the van crash the side of the car, I bolted and Debbie (shocked, too) quickly grabbed and hugged me tightly.

Totally shocked and speechless, I found myself praying for all of us, part of me are mad at the mini van's driver. "He must've been drunk", I thought. Which turns out true when we came across the mini van (now driving slowly but was NOT driving straight). We didn't plan to search for the van, yet we were glad we out it. The driver is totally, TOTALLY drunk. But he tried his best to apologize and pay back what had been damaged.

A part of me was angry because the way he drive earlier could've harmed lives. Part of me was shocked. I was physically trembling from the experience and especially thinking back the sound and impact I had earlier. "I could almost die", thinking back then. Part of me, however, pitied the van driver. He was messed up and he looked young. His friend who was with him in the van explained to us that they were from a pub and she don't know how to drive so all she could do was accompany him while he is driving. Bad decision. He should've called his friend or family to pick him up at the pub. Debbie let out a shout/scold to the lady about being drunk and still driving. Anyhow, it was sad to see drunk people. Not only they are not themselves, they are causing unwanted troubles, be it car accidents or anything in the list.

After all of us got home, I couldn't really sleep. I prayed and couldn't stop thanking the Lord for the protection upon us. Though some might call it 'luck', for me its not. I know we are all under His protection. Thank You, Lord. I also called a friend of mine, telling the story again to relief myself. If ever my friends or families would be drunk and still wanna drive, after all advises failed, my last choice would be to knock him off in the head or anywhere OR throw a pail of ice cold water at him to wake him up. (Okay, urm, that's mean of me. :-s )

How I thank Him for what He's done! The Lord protects those under His covering. So dwell in Him always, surrender every situation into His hand and He will direct you to the best destination.

Be blessed,
Nethy.

Final holiday...

I call it my final holiday since next semester would be the final sem I will be facing. (time flies so fast~!)
But still, this holiday I would be going quite often to the lab to finish off my lab work for my thesis.

Debbie is coming back from KL tomorrow! Yeah~ can't wait! Although we had some plans, I'm just not gonna focus on them. Normally when you plan a lot on something, it would normally not go as planned. So imma just keep it low and casual. But ya, I'm excited! haha..

This holiday I'm planning on NOT going out as often as the holiday before. Just feel like spending time more at home and have quality moments with the family... Coz when semester starts, it would be like - packed schedule and more things to focus on. And also I'll be starting my internship in July 'till September. (praying that I'll get the right place to intern ^^).

This year is exciting for me. I would describe this year as - Exciting, clear, but uncertain. Coz still, its a journey of faith. I know God is leading me and I'm gonna believe in Him. Amen. =)

So that's about it.

Be blessed!

T-camp Tambunan 2011

9-11 December
Venue: SIB Pekan, Tambunan.

Photo courtesy: Vievia Viavie

....... Since camp ended, I haven't got the REAL time to relax and just blog about the camp. Only "now", i got the time and chance to write this blog down. :) (This post is quite lengthy but anyway, happy + blessed reading!)

On the 9th, after my lab session finished around 4PM, we headed for Sis Ju's house before departing to Tambunan for the camp. I really THANK GOD that our lab finished sooner than what i'd expected. We reached there just in time for the night open service to start. The camp was great! I believe everyone was blessed and God has been so good all along the camp. A good place to stay, delicious food (the cook was really good! and i'm quite an eater.) and new sisters and brothers in Christ that I came to know too! I was having great flu a week before the camp and again, thank God, my flu was subsiding by the time camp start. 


Here's the things that we all learned (information) from the camp that motivates us to be who God wants us to be (transformation)... And as usual, imma write it in numbering form for easy reading. :)


1. What happen when Jesus is here? (Mark 2:1-12)
Because Jesus is here, we have the Word of God with us. We always receive His words. THAT is much more of a big deal than witnessing or experiencing miracles. Miracles are temporary while God's Word never ceases. Nothing can beat God' promise. 2011 years ago Jesus proclaimed the gospel and guess what? He's still doing it now! Why? Because HE is with us (Did someone just said Emanuel?)
So yes, God is with us. Question is, why is that sometimes we are acting like He is not with us?


Verse 3: It describes 4 friends who helped their sick friend to meet Jesus for healing. We, Christians, have to be like the 4 friends and NOT the other way round. Christians nowadays are focusing soooo much on people's or their friend's differences and not their needs of knowing Christ. (their religion backgrounds, which denominations, and the list goes on...) We shouldn't be doing that. Don't build barriers. Build bridges. Because the differences and other stuffs doesn't really matter since the most important thing is that, Jesus is there.


Two is better than one. There are many believers who are anti-social. They prefer the idea of being alone rather than mixing with people. Yet, in some cases, they like to see people who are active in church. For example, a young man who are anti-social likes to see active young ladies in church. They will grab such active people by hooking up with them or dating or etc. But not only this, they will ask the girl to be like them as well, who are anti-social. Another example, guy who is a believer but often finds himself angry or jealous or uncomfortable when seeing his partner being friendly or ministering actively. (the root for this example probably due to insecurity or possessive characteristic. So watch yourself out.) Furthermore, marriage shouldn't be with such a people. Both partners should be complementing each other, not canceling each other out. They should not be a stumbling block when it comes to ministry and even with your relationship with God.


Verse 5: This verse shows that when Jesus is there, the critics or religious people will also follow closely behind. Simply don't give up when you get offended because God is with us. The critics may be even from the church leaders. But don't be discouraged. Don't be too sensitive. In ministry, there must be people who's gonna bad-mouth about you. But don't worry, God is with us!


Verse 10: It says that Jesus has the authority to forgive our sins. 
When we are already forgiven, we will celebrate it with singing and dancing. People who don't express their joy (e.g. church service) don't feel that they are sinful enough to confess and think that they are not worthy enough to go to hell. Arrogance.
We believers sing and dance for Him. No other reason but Jesus. Many people spend a lot of $money$ to cleanse their sins (e.g. rituals, holy places/lands). But in the reality: Only Jesus can forgive us. If we always realize that we, the unworthy, are forgiven by God, we will always celebrate it!


2. True worship (Matthew 2)
True worshippers are not passive but active. The journey of the wise men to meet baby Jesus in Bethlehem takes about 2 years. These wise men came to find baby Jesus only to worship Him, because they know Jesus is the Messiah.Truw worship experience extraordinary experiences. True worshipper who worship in Spirit and in truth will not sit around and wait. He/she will be active, not spoon-fed.
Verse 2: The wise men were asking around about the birth of King of Jews until the whole Jerusalem knew about their question.


Change of the heart is essential in true worship. A true worshipper realise who he is. One who only knows God's words but doesn't execute them will only be deceiving himself, like the Pharisees.


3. God is love but love is not God (1 Kor 14:1-5)
A person filled with God's love always think about how he/she can give. A mature believer learns how to love and how to forgive. Believers who has spiritual strength (kekuatan rohani), is able to forgive eventhough they are persecuted even 'till death. True love is willing to take the first step of openess (keterbukaan) in order to forgive and to give. Learn to love, bless and pray for your parents. When we strive to learn and seek God's love, we will have the chance to bless people!


4. The vine and the branches (Yohanes 15:1-8)
Don't do things that doesn't bear any fruits (spiritually) or results. Every branches that bears no fruit will be cut off by God Himself.
There are 3 stages of growth: Fruitless --> Bears fruit --> Fruitful
There are a lot of people who are like accesories (anting-anting), not the fruitful branches (ranting-ranting),
It is impossible for people to grow spiritually without God's words.
Verse 4: This verse says and remind us that, wherever we are, whatever we do, be reminded of how God is with you! Talk to God constantly. (pray without ceasing.)
DO NOT dwell in performing or doing church activities alone! But remain in Him so that you may grow from the inside out. It is essential to have an intimate relationship with God in order to grow spiritually in Him. Thus, being born-again is important for believers. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. 
Ok, lets read it again... Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. (James 4:8) 
Let this scripture sinks into our spirit and be amazed by how God work when we draw near to Him. :)
If we do not have a close relationship with God, we will experience boredom in life. We need to do something about it (e.g. pray), not God. It is US who follow God, not God who follow us. 
When we are fruitful, we are giving glory to God! 


Personal thought: 
As i end this post, my simple prayer would be that none of us be astrayed from the ONE truth that sets us free. I pray that although many of us come from different backgrounds, let's stay united in prayer. Let's focus on what unite us. I just feel that the clock is ticking quite sooner than we thought 'till Jesus' second coming. It has been going on in my mind for some time now so i might as well share this here. I feel that there is seriously no time to waste. This year is Jubilee Year for Malaysia, as we all know. Last year's at Malaysia Day Celebration in Holy Seal City Mall, God's message has been: "Consecrate yourself." Amen.

Be blessed! ^^
Nethy.