Dancing with me Amor

I don't think I'm the only one experiencing this in my spiritual journey with God. Yesterday, I felt like I'm on the verge of bursting. Its as if I'm carrying this whole loads of burden and pressure that makes me feel somewhat - low.

At that low point, I couldn't find a way to rejoice or even feel His closeness. It was about time to go for prayer meeting and my mind tells me, "You can skip one night. It's OK." 

At that low point, I was negotiating within my brain - to go or not to go.

At that low point, I was ready to give in to my reasoning and physical emotions.

But somehow, I knew. I knew where I should be at that moment. In His house. In His presence.

So before my human mind made up its mind, I take control of every thought and decided to go.

As soon as we enter into a time of worship, God began working in me. The tears are flowing as if they are waiting to be released into the open. I felt His hands embracing me and restoring me. I could feel His love dancing over me, inviting me to dance with Him. And so it continued, for what it seems for more than an hour. In His deep, tangible presence. And at the end, I knew. I was restored. The tears that flowed out was replaced by living water - Jesus Himself. The burden was lifted. Or it became lighter. And I heard Him saying, "Look to me. Fix your eyes upon me." In a serious tone. Like a loving Father saying to a helpless child.

And then I knew. I was rest assured. He is always with me. And the joy of knowing that, and His unstoppable love, is beyond ah-ma-zing !

Come before God (not man) and cry out to Him (not man) for what person could be more better than the One who loved us first?

And I can tell you that you can smile before man. And any situations seems bearable simply because that joy in you weighs more than your problems and situations.

Love,

Nethy

YLTC 2

Venue: Kionsom Retreat Baptist Centre

Date: 30 September – 2 October 2011

            …and so I got there with Kenny only during the second day.

Had a refreshing time there with the Lord.  At this point of writing, I’m not sure what to write (It had been awhile I’d last write something long). Be patient with me and read through patiently as I unwind my packed thoughts while writing this down. I am not sure what to expect when I join this camp. Or maybe, give? But anyhow, I know something’s gonna happen there. So here it goes… These are all during the sermons by Ps. Ong (like before, Imma do it in point form for easy reading and mind-processing) =) :

1) If you love God, you will obey Him.

Love birthes obedience. True love hates sin, it will not have anything to do with sin. We should love God more than our life (obey God). If we truly love God, we will realign our life plan ACCORDING TO HIS COMMANDMENTS and we will stop live life recklessly (dengan sewenang-wenangnya)

If we live in disobedience, we won't experience God's presence because God hates sin!

  

John 14:15-26 [Jesus promised us Holy Spirit] 

Holy Spirit is the spirit of truth. The "world" represents unbelievers. He is not given to the "world" but to God's people. But nowadays, even God's people deny/reject Holy Spirit because they do not know Holy Spirit.

Develop a deep relationship with Holy Spirit. IT IS CRUCIAL (sangat penting!) Because without Him, we would not mature in Christ and would not progress spiritually. Remember that we are from dust and will go back to dust~ Don't depend on our dust-liness strength. (When you think you're strong on your own feet only, think again.) Depend on God (D.O.G.)! We are living our spiritual life because Jesus is alive, He has risen from the dead.

Stop being hypocrite and stop living for this "world". It is harder to live for Satan than for Jesus. Living for Jesus gives us joy, peace, serenity and harmony (It does!!)

Live righteously (Hidup dalam kekudusan). Don't follow your emotions but fear the Lord. (Yeah, don't let your emotions deceive you. I've been there and it really stings. Deal with your emotions, trust me, Holy Spirit will help you get through it. You'll be amazed!) 

Live a life with principles (of God, of course~), according to His commands.

2) PADI (bukan mamam...)

John 15:8-13 [Be fruitful]

P- persekutuan@fellowship

A- alkitab

D- doa

I- injilkan

No matter what, protect the body of Christ by obeying His words and be wise... Live for Jesus, not for your emotions. 

When choosing a partner, think carefully and PRAY. Don't rush but ask God about it and listen (when listening, come to God with a neutral mind because sometimes we tend to create an answer and assume that its God's voice padahal suara hati kita sendiri!) [Jangan tersenyum2 baca nie blog sudah la ah..]

See how things go about that person. Is he suitable or not? Does he fear God or not? Does he say grace when during your 1st date or not? 

(Notice that boy-girl relationship is very much highlighted during the camp, right? I think its a call for youths to really rise up and make a difference in our distorted youth lifestyle. Biar orang nampak kita lain daripada yang lain. Sebab they need to know the truth and the truth will set them free~~~ Dare to be different! One influenced person can influence the rest of the people ^^) 

If I am spiritually healthy, I will proclaim the Good News to people no matter how.

After this camp, when you're alone, satan will IMMEDIATELY attack you through your mind, play around with your thoughts, try his best to inject negative thoughts in your head. FIND an accountability partner!!! Don't be alone and keep all your feelings to yourself! Join fellowship... (In our fellowship, we share what we've gone through the days and just share to the group what we are having and we'd encourage one another through His words and lastly pray for one another. So, fellowship IS important!)

Final thoughts: Every camp, God is giving something new in each and every one of us. Keep expecting more from God. Keep your fire burning. Be sensitive to Holy Spirit. If you fall, quickly run to Jesus and confess your sins. He is ready to forgive... 

"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just 

and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness." -1 John 1:9

I don't know when we will meet again but till we do, lets keep on praying for one another and be an agent of transformation that carry God's love wherever we go. Ada Amen? 

Amen... ^^

Just feel like saying...

A story to tell:

"I lose this friend of mine recently (well, not physically). I'm not quite sure how to put it in proper words but it hurts. It happened informally. No words is said but action speaks louder than words. 

I'm dissapointed. But I'm not gonna blame that friend for what he's done. Its his right anyway."

Another story to tell:

"I have a friend. He is everything I could ever asked for. When I confide to him, he would listen. Eventhough I may sound boring to others but with him, its different. I never thought a person like that existed. Until I came to know him. What I'm typing now sounds so POETIC but I mean it. Each season in my life, he is there. Itsumo... All my hurts and joys I share with him. I know with him, I am secure. 

And most of all, he loves me. And I love him. Very much."

Here's the bottom line of both this stories:

Things may change. Friends may change. They may come and go. Lovers may come and go. Money may come and go (and vanish!). Beauty may come and go (and rot!). Brain@IQ may come and go (and slow as you get old!). My first story is saddening. He is a good friend but unfortunately we are not friends anymore. I let him go as an amigo. My second story is heart-lifting. He is a good friend eventhough I have not seen him yet. His name is Jesus. He remains the same, yesterday, today and forever...And I'm glad I found him.  ^^ Gaining and losing is the essential in life. But one verse I found that strengthen me is in Job 1:20-21

"Then he fell to the ground in worship and said: "Naked I came from my mother's womb, 

and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;

may the name of the Lord be praised.""

Job lose his properties and sons and daughters. In a nutshell, he lost his everything and even became very poor. But these are the first thing that came out from his mouth as a response to these situations. I just pray that as time gets by, I will understand what is it really mean by living by faith and not by sight.

Be blessed!

Nethy.