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I feel nervous. Like, being the goalkeeper waiting for the ball to come (or maybe got hit by the ball) and its like, “There’s a ball coming and it will surely come. And when it comes, it won’t be nice but its gonna be hard and rough. Argh!!!”

Oh well, this phrase would be said only if the goalkeeper is me. *laughs* But this is the picture of what I’m feeling now.

I know its stupid to type this in blog but AM I READY? (“cheer up! You are ready…”)

SEA is one situation that I have learned to handle. It takes sometime to learn it. THIS is something different than SEA. What makes me actually nervous is knowing that I don’t know what is waiting for me. I only know there are stakes that I’m gonna take and the stakes are high. I just pray that as time goes by, I will learn and learn and eventually this will be an experience that I can share with others. I guess lotsa people experience this, huh? =)

Answering to my post title, I’m writing (or expressing) down what  I call as –Self motivation! (according to my way)

Just feel like saying...

A story to tell:

"I lose this friend of mine recently (well, not physically). I'm not quite sure how to put it in proper words but it hurts. It happened informally. No words is said but action speaks louder than words. 

I'm dissapointed. But I'm not gonna blame that friend for what he's done. Its his right anyway."

Another story to tell:

"I have a friend. He is everything I could ever asked for. When I confide to him, he would listen. Eventhough I may sound boring to others but with him, its different. I never thought a person like that existed. Until I came to know him. What I'm typing now sounds so POETIC but I mean it. Each season in my life, he is there. Itsumo... All my hurts and joys I share with him. I know with him, I am secure. 

And most of all, he loves me. And I love him. Very much."

Here's the bottom line of both this stories:

Things may change. Friends may change. They may come and go. Lovers may come and go. Money may come and go (and vanish!). Beauty may come and go (and rot!). Brain@IQ may come and go (and slow as you get old!). My first story is saddening. He is a good friend but unfortunately we are not friends anymore. I let him go as an amigo. My second story is heart-lifting. He is a good friend eventhough I have not seen him yet. His name is Jesus. He remains the same, yesterday, today and forever...And I'm glad I found him.  ^^ Gaining and losing is the essential in life. But one verse I found that strengthen me is in Job 1:20-21

"Then he fell to the ground in worship and said: "Naked I came from my mother's womb, 

and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;

may the name of the Lord be praised.""

Job lose his properties and sons and daughters. In a nutshell, he lost his everything and even became very poor. But these are the first thing that came out from his mouth as a response to these situations. I just pray that as time gets by, I will understand what is it really mean by living by faith and not by sight.

Be blessed!

Nethy.

Netto. Debo. Yoyo.

Our Yoyo(s)

Somewhere in August this year in Cupcake Calendar... Miss the moments... 

See ya next year again~ (Or end of this year but fingers crossed!)

Mistake among mistakes

Its the one mistake I have made. If only i resist myself from doing it, everything couldn'tve happened.
Now I know its too late, it all reveals now........
Silly me, things shouldn't happened another way round but why should it happen like this?
I know, its because of my choice of action.
But its ok, no matter what you think of me, i know the truth myself.
And no matter what people is telling around about me, I know the truth and I will not let myself be disturbed by that nonsense story.
Feel like I'm at a crossroad now, deciding which path to take. Come to think about it again, I feel like its just the early crossroad among many of them, all waiting to show up as time goes by....
Lord, help me to make a wise decision in this time of decision-making phase of life.

"A new chapter has closed, A new one has opened...."

Don't just get, give la...

Ps. Kenneth from Acts church in Subang ever said this, "You don't find hapiness in getting, getting, getting... But you always find joy, fulfillment, breakthrough, even FREEDOM in giving." 
This is true indeed... As for myself, its easy to have the feeling of getting, getting, getting for MYSELF (in the past). But since Christ came into the picture of my life, everything changed. Giving becomes a norm for me. Giving doesn't mean I'm giving up my money if someone casually asked me for it. Giving can be in a vast forms. Listening attentively to someone also means giving, in a way that you are giving your time to listen to that person. Sharing is also a type of giving.
However, giving may also means to give away what you have if the other person seriously needed it. Recently I've been cleaning up my room and I've found out that there's a lottttt of clothes in my closet. SO many that it literally can't fit into my closet. Many of these clothes are still in good form but instantly, my thinking gets to - "Other people's closet might be empty... Some may have only few clothings... Some may not even afford to buy it..." So I give away the clothes and pass it on to the needy and even the younger generations.
Giving advise is also a form of giving. An advise is most of the time what a person needs. Most people are dying to hear a sensible, wise, right advise and they would go for counsellor, phyciatrist, etc... But here's the good news for believers: God is giving us advises so that we may able to advise to others. THOSE advises are God's wisdom which can be trusted and be passed on from one to another.

This post sums up what's going on in my life currently now. I feel like my life does not belong to me anymore. It belongs to Him (doesn't mean I have to give up my life physically, okay....?) and now its about living for Him. It may sound dull for you but it sounds great for me. Why? Because, why not live for Him? I can think of many reasons but the ultimate one is because - He already gave up His life for me on the cross! How great is that? =D

In short, Jesus showed me whats it really mean to give, which is so that others can have life and life abundantly. ^_^

Netto.

My treat at Le Safran. =)

For the first time ever, after i got my pay I've decided to treat my Mom something delicious. Yesterday both of us went to Le Safran in Suria Sabah, a French restaurant that serves French delicacies including desserts.

Yes, I’ve been there once before and tasted their desserts. It was delicious. My favourite is Tiramisu. The sweetness and bitterness of it is totally balanced. Mom loved it too. =)

The Red Velvet cake looks really red and although the topping is sweet, it has too much colouring which contribute to its intense bitterness (yeah, it was intense when I tasted it). The blueberry tart was nice too but Mom thinks it was just the same like other blueberry tart she’d tried before. [Sounds like someone is a food critic. Hehe..]

Anyhow, out of the 4 desserts that we ordered, only two of them we enjoyed the most: Tiramisu and Lychee something² (I forgot the name). 1 thing I like about this restaurant is the ambience. Almost everything is white! It’s got a really cozy and laid back atmosphere, an ideal  place to relax, have meeting and maybe surfing..? (they got WiFi…) The pricing I would say may be around RM35 – RM45 per person. Overall I would give 3.5/5 for the food and 4.5/5 for the ambience. =)

We had a great day ! (not only the eating part but also spending quality time together) ^^

not-important.

Frustrated.

Sad. (hurt?)

Cry.

Sob. (maybe not.)

CalmDown.

Pray. (#1!)

Smile.

Sleep. (yea...)