Tuesday, January 1

What sustains.

Its been a long while since I last posted something here.
I'm not going to write some poem or something epic to be remembered.

What I'm about to talk about is something personal and something that really means a lot. I have shared about how I came to know the LORD almost 4 years ago. And His overwhelming love that keeps me has sustained until today! :)

Yesterday, we had our final service and I worship led. The presence of God is so sweet and again, overwhelming. When I couldn't contain the overwhelming feeling inside me, I would cry. But everytime I would always be concious and not be strayed away by the feelings because I KNOW that as a worship leader, we are leading the congregation into the atmosphere of worship. What I did not expect was that, after the free worship, God's love suddenly came bursting out like a flood. And I really mean it. A FLOOD. For the first time, I couldn't contain it. It overflowed and I just gave in to His warm embrace. For the first time, I feel like God is saying "Its OK. I am here." And there goes the sobbing like a lost child just found her dad. I must admit, even minutes (even seconds!) in His presence is a life-changing moment. Choking back the tears, we continue deeper in worship.

And as we go deeper to worship, God brings me back to years ago when I first accepted Him into my life as a living God. It was the love of God that i felt that totally change my life. You know, I was about to write it all out here but i really can't find words to express it. God is faithful. There are many times I have (honestly) taken Him as granted. And we all do. We sometimes just lost it, being a human still. But His mercy endures forever.

"If you fall down, get back on track and move forward. Don't stay where you are"

There are times I couldn't bring myself to forgive myself for things that I've done. But its His reassuring words
 that convicts me. And I forgave.

Love in Greek.

It feels like it was just yesterday when I found that agape love. And it is what sustains us.

Be blessed.

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