A song to share: When I cry

Written by Marshall Hall and Benji Gaither 

Makin' a list of all of the good things you've done for me.
Lord, I've never been one to complain.
But, right now I'm lost, and I can't find my way.
My world's come apart, and it's breakin' my heart.
But it helps to know; that your heart is breaking

When I cry, You cry. When I hurt, You hurt.
When I've lost someone, it takes a piece of You too.
And when I fall on my face, You fill me with grace.
Cause nothing breaks Your heart, or tears You apart
Like when I cry.
Alone in the dark, face in my hands cryin' out to You.
Lord, there's never been a time in my life,
There's so much at stake, there's so much to lose.
But I trust it to You. You'll bring me through.
And it helps me to know that I'm not alone.
You're the one who calmed the raging sea.
You're the one who made the blind to see.
You looked through all of heaven and eternity,
And through it all you saw me.

p.s.-This song I dedicate to all those who is facing a hard situation, where all you can do is cry. Its OK to cry but don't let the cry/situation get you. Come to Him who knows all your need and loves you. =)

Today. (I mean yesterday)

We had our youth outing yesterday at Mompoit river. It was awesome. The scenery alone was nice. The river was nice. We had a great time swimming and enjoying the untouched nature over there. Here's what happen:

Being excited, I swam all over to the upper level of the river. The current was quite strong. The floor of the river was deep, some not so deep. After going through the water and climbing up the rocks to the upper level, I casually placed my hand on the pocket of my pants and I went "Aaaaaahh~!" 

Guess what? It get all soaked up by water. My handphone. Seriously, I didn't realise it was WITH me 'coz I thought I've left it in my bag. (OK, so a lesson learned.) I quickly pass it to Caleb and I think Len helped me to dry it off under the sun. Well, being in the water, I turned my attention to enjoying the river. It was really fun...... =) 

After we got back home, after the handphone has totally dried off I turned it on. It eventually didn't. I'm really upset but since I guess I feel more tired than worry about it. Later that evening, before going to our family potbless dinner in Kolopis I try to switch it on again. To my utmost surprise, it blinked and it was fine! thank God for everything! The moment we surrender everything to Him, He will surely take care of us because He never leave us nor forsake us. =)

"Cast all your anxiety on Him because 

He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7

Indeed, Amen! ^_^ 

Piano cover

This is a piano cover by i-don't-know-who, where the song played is a soundtrack from "Secret Garden".

I love to hear it when nobody is singing it.

It sounds better with only piano.

Its a soothing song and can also serves as a lullaby. ^^

"Through the rain" + "The trip"

Ever since I was a young kid, i've always enjoyed playing in the rain. Regardless of getting sick, I wouldn't care much. I feel its raining now. Altho' its a different kinda rain, I'm soaking it now. There seemed to be no end to this rain. I believe there's a reason for every hardship aka problem.

When complaining and running away seems to be the shortest way out from a mess, I'm learning to stay still and think wisely before doing anything. People say friends may come and go, lovers may come and go but family stays on forever. And I thank you God for having my family right now. And also to my relatives and friends who encouraged me through the 'rain' that I'm having now.

This is not a long post. I just feel like writing to show my appreciation to my loved ones, far and near, seen and unseen... God bless y'all.. =)

Okay, another story:
Anyway, its good to be home. The vacation trip was simply one of my most memorable memories! ^^ Altho i must admit that I can't live long in a city like KL. I think I'll suit better with nature around me and not tall buildings.haha.. Genting was fun too but I found out myself wondering how my homeland is better than Genting. (OK, and my mum agree me with this okay...) But if there's a next time for a trip again, why not?
Debbie joined us after we got back from Genting. On the final night, we had a great great great time just talking 'bout life and sharing and talking 'bout our studies 'n future... and praying and sharing and laughing and praying and laughing and crying and reading the bible and listening to each other, advising each other and praying for each other... I would call it our singletons' night. (ok, that does sound quite okay..hehe..)

Snapped by wo de papa.  

In front of twin tower during the final night. The shot? by us lor.. ^^

Speechless.

Tomorrow we're leaving for KL. I should be happy and excited for this. Although I do feel that but something's not right... Yeah... That's the thing that is not right. Right now, I feel more sad than happy.
I know I'm supposed to be strong but I can't be fake. I don't want and hate to be hypocrite. I'm speechless right now. I don't know what went wrong. I really don't.
Yeah, time will tell. Even it is for a long time, there will be an end to all this. I just feel like crying.
Give me the strength, Lord. While I'm waiting for that to happen, i will serve You.

On the 18th May 2011....

Japhia is born! I have another niece... And another one coming next month... More kiddies and cuties in the family.. ^^

I know I sounded really excited and all... BUT, whatever it is... I can't wait to see my niece! Aww... wee~ ^^

Dear Lord, thank You for this day... =) 

Bless her and protect her all the way through her life... In Jesus' name. Amen..

For I give, I forgive.

It doesn't matter what I do, I'm bankrupt without love. (1 Cor 13)

When someone hurt you, to be emotional and react with anger seems to be the shortest way to make yourself feel better. I did that and I regret it terribly. What I did was stupid and not based on love.

"A gentle answer turns away wrath" (Proverbs)

If time could turn back, I would not act so abruptly.

These days I learn to forgive and forgive and forgive. I learn a lot about forgiveness.

Time to move on now. 

Let all the past be the past as it is in the past. It doesn't belong in the present. Don't let it ever cling onto you and make you suffer.

Here's a clear statement: 

iforgiveyouforwhatyou'vedone.

Because God has first loved me, I am able to forgive you and love you with the love of Christ. 

Happy Mother's Day~

To all mothers, young and old, Happy momma's day! ^^

My dearest Mamita is not at home at the moment. She's is KL now but coming back later tonight. 

Here's some pictures of us together. 

I searched in those folders I seldom open and I found these.....which made me smile... 

Having her as my mother is a blessing and one of the most precious things that exist in my life.

All the scoldings she threw at me only meant for my benefit, never hers. 

Those times we laughed, argued, cried and talked together made her so special in my life.

Not only as a mom but a best friend of mine as well! We shared almost everything (and i think everything...)

Except for clothings (^^"), we shared almost every stuffs too. From books to shoes. 

I of the naughtiest reply I ever said to her when I did wrong or annoy her was, "Well mom, its genetic." And she would give me that look that says 'ceh-yalah-tue'. But of course, I don't answer that EVERY TIME to her la... (memang siap kena goreng masak2 kalau selalu la..hehe..)

Another precious moment with my mom was when I was in school. I did a veeeeery childish and absuuuuurd request (can't remember clearly la..) that I ended up crying because mom didn't want give me what I wanted. It was horrible. I was crying and she was scolding me very badly. But at the end, she sits next to me on my bed hugged me and said, "You are my only daughter in this world. If I could give you everything, I would. But in 'that' case (which is my stupid request la), I couldn't afford. I love you and Matiu very much!" She cried a bit while saying those words.

Those are the sweetest, most earnest words I've heard from my mom. I ever write it down (hehe..).

Well, the bottom line of whole thing is that - I love my mom. ^^ I may not be perfect in words and maybe sometimes actions but having her is a gift from God. Thank You, Lord. ^^

Wo de papa, mama, little brother Matiu he wo.

Love them much much! XOXO

 To all readers, hug your mom like you never did. Surprise them by that small action of just a hug. 

It may seem typical, but if you really mean it, I'm sure she'll appreciate it. 

And do be generous in saying "I love you as well". You might always, seldom or never do it, it doesn't matter. Take this time to say it to her. It'll lighten up not only her day, but also her life. ^^

(I was a bit shocked when I found this picture 'coz I thought I've deleted it already.)

Where you go I go

- Kim Walker (Jesus Culture)

Where you go I go
What you say I say
What you pray I pray

Jesus only did, What he saw you do
He would only say, What he heard you speak
He would only move, When he felt you lead
Following your heart, Following your spirit

How could I expect to walk without you
When every move that Jesus made was in surrender
I would not begin to live without you
For you alone are worthy you are always good

You are always good
You are always good
Always good
Always good

Though the world seems to forget
We will not forget
Who you are and what you've done for us

You are my God
(repeat 5x)

What if you have 1 day left to live?

There's a camp called Life Game coming up this end of this month. Its big question about this camp is - What if you have 4 days left to live?

I reduce it to one day, with a purpose. With one day, there's not much you can do left. With one day, you'll tend to prioritize the most important things in life to deal with before everything is over. What happen if this is the one day that is left for me? For you?

If it was me, being at this age right now, I would cancel all my duties and would first gather my family around me, talk to them and make sure I hug each and everyone of them. I would apologize to those whom i have wronged unconciously or conciously. I would donate all my belongings to those who are in need. I would stop and appreciate every face that I have known. I would give thanks to God who created me and give me breath to live this far. I would tell my loved ones, family and friends, how much i cherish them and how much i love them. To those who hurt me, I'm gonna smile and say, "I forgive you."

With that one final day, I would not shed a single tear and smile joyfully as if it was just the beginning of life. I would look to the sky and remember Him who is always there for me, in joy and in sorrow, in sickness and in health... I would ask forgiveness from the Almighty who is ever-loving and faithful for all the sins and mistakes that I've done. I would spend more time with my family and tell them the goodness that He has done to me and asked them to spread the testimonies. I would sing and dance and shout and sing praises to His name!

But most importantly, I would tell my loved ones about the everlasting love I have received from Him. Because in the end, it ain't matter how much I have achieved, the only thing that matters is how much love I've shown to people around me.

What would you have done in that one final day?


Sincerely written thoughts by me.