Best timing.

I've come to realization that for all the years since I first decided to follow Him, His timing is always the best. It is no coincidence that now I am in Tung Ling Seminary, studying deeper of His Words. It always makes me so grateful, thinking back of how He prepare me before going off to Tung Ling. 

You see, I often have difficulty in expressing myself, my thoughts to people. Although I get it in my head, I can't really deliver it clearly (at times.) So i'm gonna try and express it by writing it down, since I know writing is one of the good things i can do. Apart from the financial situation that God had helped me through (and recently, a pleasant news that sustains me until now ^^), I felt that this 3 months are so intense and exciting that I find myself always looking forward to see what's next! Classes were fun and exciting. The lecturers were great teachers and comedians (this is true in every class.) Friends were great as well. We get along well and just knowing them is a blessing for me. But above all of what I've mentioned, there is something divine that is shifting and moving me into seeing a greater revelation (which I can't really explain clearly). Day by day, it just confirms what God has put in my heart all this years. The burden for the young people. Especially the natives in Sabah (to be specific). Even before I heard of Jubilee year and PAN, that burden was there. For a period of time, I thought it was gone and no longer there. But it has just gotten heavier and I often felt the tug in me to pray for them.

During FJM in Kuala Lipis, I was blown away at seeing how God moves. Tabitha and I were given the chance to share our hearts from the view of young people of Sabah & Sarawak. [You see, the reason why I'm posting this is because I've figured out that I cannot this matter linger in my head without telling people about it. And simply because I am CONVICTED.] To simplify what both of us shared, it is about yearning to see the young people to grasp the vision that the leaders have (which God has put in their heart) and not just wander/follow leaders without OWNING the vision. Its very easy to just follow and do what is told by people. But it is a very different thing to own the vision and do what God tells you to do (be it through leaders or personal conviction). I cannot imagine Jesus' 12 disciples simply followed Him, not having any vision or idea why they did. If they did, they wouldn't be delegated and change the world! Years after years will pass by. By then, some leaders might not be around anymore. Think about the next generation. Its not about positions or whatsoever, but the main thing is to do God's will and let His will alone be done. 

We need each other. I have so much to share but I'll just end here for now. Let's keep praying. And until Jesus come for the second time, let's live for Him and Him alone. And God's timing is the best. Always will. :)

Be blessed.

Athena

Life.

Life's not fair. That is one of the most favorite phrase people love to say.

But if life is fair, then it is not life anymore. As much as we get frustrated with life, God has much much to offer us, IF we only take heed of His Words. Everything was broken since the major incident in garden of Eden. So basically, its not a surprise that we have this so-called 'unfair' life.

Some of us are born rich, some poor and some average. Some were born with a genius mind, etc. But all of us were created in God's image. So you have totally NO SAY or be PROUD of what you have. Not even lucky! God planned it all. But here's the interesting part, you see... Every obstacle in life, consider it an opportunity for a greater JOY! The problems or difficulties that you are facing with right now is actually an opportunity for you to grow. After that problem is solved, then it will become a blessing to those who hears it. 

The topic we had earlier today in class is one topic that you don't get often. It reveals what your heart's content is. And yes, it opens up my eyes in a new light. After understanding it, you can't even comprehend the depth, the length, the height and the width of Father's heart for His children. After learning and taste a bit of the Father's heart, life makes more sense in knowing that His love is unconditional, strengthens you and brings tremendous healing!

These days...

These past few days, including the day before our plane took off for KL, I've witnessed the goodness of the LORD without stop. I feel Him closer than ever. Like, seriously!

Went to Kuala Lipis for FJM and boyyyy, more revelation there! Until now I'm still unable to find the RIGHT words to explain the things that He showed me (us). Part of me feels like this is too much for someone like me. Yet, most part of me is excited (and I feel like running) for the things that He is ABOUT to do in this nation! On the last day, we watched a video of worship during the homecoming in Hong Kong last year. It was a long video, about 40 minutes. We watched and worshiped. Its the first video (apart from testimony clips, movies, dramas) that made me cry so badly till my eye is swollen. Like other worship videos, there's nothing super-extraordinary about it. But, the atmosphere of everything kinda just blown out of the screen and hit the atmosphere on our side. Something that is so powerful and anointed! The warmth and the flow of  God's love is indescribable.

Today's class had been wonderful. I already know that my time there would be a memorable and fruitful one.  Thank God for this opportunity.

Thinking of Sabah. The news about the gunshots broke last week when we were still in Kuala Lipis. I have been praying for Sabah and I couldn't help feeling sad and worried. Mom just called and also texted saying that the situation there has indeed become worse. She apparently have to take turns with the night shift. Part of me wish I'm there right now. But I know this is where God wants me to be now. Let's keep praying for God's will to be done is Sabah, as well as His protection over the land! Our God is bigger than this! He is able!


Athena.